I use to hang out at my buddies gas station.. at night.
hang out there until he closed.. then go to the titty bar... play some pool there.. get a few lap dances..
periodically going to the restroom to do a fat line of coke.. tounge all numb.. my whole mouth would go numb.. including the top of my mouth.. which for some reason... for me.. when I did a HUGE line of coke.. made it hard for me to talk correctly.. man the good 'ol days. Dude would ALWAYS have a little sumthin sumthin for me.. each night I went to his corner gas station to help and hang out.. my dude ALWAYS had something for me.. usually he would just throw like a $20bag of coke at me.. for free.. basically. He's a cool cat.. from the Bronx.. that's my dude!
anyhow.. I also wanted to speak my opinion about addiction. Personally, I've done the following drugs so far in my life: Coke; X; Acid; Xanex; and the last two.. are Oxies and Roxies. Out of all those drugs.. I could do all of them for a year straight.. and not get addicted. But, when it came down to the Oxies and Roxies.. that shit kicked my ass. I was addicted to the Roxies and Oxies.. BIG TIME.
But, when it came to the X; COKE; ACID; XANEX.. I was able to do those whenever I wanted to.. without having any kind of withdraw.. none what so ever. But, yeah.. the Oxies and Roxies were the ones that got me.. I wasn't able to mentally control those.. like I was able to with the other ones. But then again, Roxies and Oxies are by far WAY stronger than any street drug. period.
I think that's why I got addicted to them.. well.. one of the reasons why anyhow.
but yeah, my point is.. is some people are able to mentally control the "wanting" or "needing" of certain drugs.. while other people may not be able to do so. I happen to be one of those people that can mentally control the withdraw.. because I never really had any withdraw symptoms.. so I didn't know what they were like.. until the Roxies and Oxies came into my life. WOW.. those 2 years I was hooked on the Oxies and Roxies.. worst two years of my life.. now that I'm sober 100% except from pot.. and can look back on it.. and see how bad I really was.
Anyhow.. just thought I would toss my opinion/experience in.
peace everyone.