Why do i hate my ex so much?!

Well, instead of this being a "i miss my ex!" thread, im just gonna put out right now. We broke up right before last summer. We haven't really talked since. I went insane after that, doing stupid shit, thinking stupid shit. Now its been a good 5 months where i havent been truely depressed. Iv'e gotten with girls, hang out with the buddies, and basically do whatever I want to do. Here is the thing.

I dont feel good about myself. Because of the break up...from last fkn year. I dont know why. Maybe its becuase after the break up, she lost weight, got super hott (she was always really pretty) and started going out more. She's a fuckin hoe now. And i gues it makes me a little sad that it had to happen. I can't even go out without worrying about seeing her with someone else. Especially when she's with old friends of mine. The last time I saw her was on Valentines Day at a party. She, of course was with an aquantance of mine. What ended up happening is i started talkin shit and she threw beer at my face in front my friends. So I threw my Vodka in her face. Now, i didnt want to, but I had too. She started crying and i followed her out the house talkin shit. I was super drunk. Last time I saw her. clap

I also think that im typing out this thread becuase im just in a horrible mood. I failed my Philosophy class which is the easiest class to take and I have horrible heartburn.
After I left today, I saw her truck and felt the need to spit all over it. Which I did. I also threw my McDonalds trash in the bed of her truck. Bitch.

But now it just brings me down. Because i would have killed anyone that did that if i were still with her. AND I feel really immature now, but i was just really pissed.

I also havent smoked in a few days, and i notice that when i dont smoke i turn into someone completely different. Its really getting to me, as if im dependant on it.

So, is it normal to still have those thought in the back of your head, a year after you break up? I just feel like a weak person now, and shes doing it do me. Why cant i escape?

Ugh so yeah, thats my post. Try and refrain from bitching me out. Im not a pest with her all the time, i dont even deal with her anymore. So yeah, i hope some of you read this bullshit sob thread. Im gonna gto try and get some herb.

no man dont feel bad women bring out the worst and the best in us! and a year aint shit i still get shitty feelings about an ex from 5 years ago!

No woman no cry, mang. Ex's are nightmares...

dude.. im in the same boat. wat u put was if i was writing it. i hate that bitch so much.

VaporBros said:

So I threw my Vodka in her face. Now, i didnt want to, but I had too. She started crying and i followed her out the house talkin shit. I was super drunk. Last time I saw her. clap

After I left today, I saw her truck and felt the need to spit all over it. Which I did. I also threw my McDonalds trash in the bed of her truck. Bitch.

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LOL! Dude, as much as I feel your pain, I can laugh at my own memories of doing this sort of shit. dudes are crazy after breakups, no matter how that shit goes (good or bad). all I can say is that you are already self-aware enough to get productive, and use this shit as fuel. emerge from the fire as a phoenix, that's my philosophy. and no drunken dials/texts, that one gets me into trouble

yeah alot of the reason why we are officially done is because i called her SUPER drunk and threatened her. She even told me that that drew the line. So no more of those. lol.

just delete her number from ur phone

its been deleted. I havent talked to her in months. Haven't even seen her. But im friends with her ex-best friend so there is always a constant reminder. But im not going to NOT be friends with someone because they remind me of someone.

She pretty much lost the people she was closest too. Me and her best friend/neigbor. Now she's friends with someone she hasnt liked really at all, but thats all she has, and a bunch of guys. So it makes me happyt o think that she may be living a miserable life.

Her friend even told me "she's going to live a miserable live alone" so i have some sort of good feeling. But in all honesty, id rather both of us live a great life. All that is out the window now. So i guess i gotta still occupy myself. I need a fucking steady job

Update: Im going to pick of a gram of SuperChem right now. Hopefully that will ease my heartburn (literally, my chest is on fire) and hopefully mellow me out.

Everyone should listen to 'Beware' by Deftones.

have you tried getting with her ex best friend? that sounds like it would make me feel better

rofl. I would but she looks like shrek.

I CAN get with her current friend, but shes my friends ex....so its like...i can really fuck her social life up and lose a friend, or just not do it.

its a toughy hahaha

I can almost relate.. but the best thing to do, is not do all those stupid things.. next time you see her truck.. just walk by it.. next time you see her, smile and nod.. and just walk by her..

when my girl decided to marry her ole man, I did alot of stupid shit.. tried to blow my heart up doin meth.. wrecked my truck.. went out to their house and told her I appreciated her breakin my heart and asked her if it was too hard to pick up a phone?"...

Didn't do anything but make me feel worse... and make her feel like shit..

so I went, made things right, told her I loved her.. because I do.. no matter what.. and that I would always be waiting for her.. no matter who may be in my life... If she ever wanted me, I was her's, and if she ever felt like she had "nothing, just remember you have my heart".. and then I walked out the door...

The best way to make things better dude, are to make things peaceful, and walk away... it's sorta sad that not everybody can do that..

get over it dude are you really gonna let one women or whatever u wanna caller her ruin your life and make you feel shit????? and stop fucking spittin on her shit and being retarded its just gonna make u feel worse not better plus what about karma what goes around comes around

You hate her cause without you she has more fun , more friends , and she is getting QUALITY COCK ..

Thats what I heard

Has rollitup.org become myface.com or some shit?

korvette1977 said:

you hate her cause without you she has more fun , more friends , and she is getting quality cock ..

Thats what i heard

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soooo true +rep

You need a new woman. That will help a lot. Or get you hooked again and more pain. Life, what a mother f______er.

korvette1977 said:

You hate her cause without you she has more fun , more friends , and she is getting QUALITY COCK ..

Thats what I heard

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hahahah

BackDoorMan said:

I can almost relate.. but the best thing to do, is not do all those stupid things.. next time you see her truck.. just walk by it.. next time you see her, smile and nod.. and just walk by her..

when my girl decided to marry her ole man, I did alot of stupid shit.. tried to blow my heart up doin meth.. wrecked my truck.. went out to their house and told her I appreciated her breakin my heart and asked her if it was too hard to pick up a phone?"...

Didn't do anything but make me feel worse... and make her feel like shit..

so I went, made things right, told her I loved her.. because I do.. no matter what.. and that I would always be waiting for her.. no matter who may be in my life... If she ever wanted me, I was her's, and if she ever felt like she had "nothing, just remember you have my heart".. and then I walked out the door...

The best way to make things better dude, are to make things peaceful, and walk away... it's sorta sad that not everybody can do that..

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I can respect that. And now that i smoked my first bowl in a few days, im feeling like how i was yesterday. Content. Love the herb.

All day today I was feelin pretty weak but im over it now. I usually never put too much thought into this subject.