VaporBros
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Well, instead of this being a "i miss my ex!" thread, im just gonna put out right now. We broke up right before last summer. We haven't really talked since. I went insane after that, doing stupid shit, thinking stupid shit. Now its been a good 5 months where i havent been truely depressed. Iv'e gotten with girls, hang out with the buddies, and basically do whatever I want to do. Here is the thing.
I dont feel good about myself. Because of the break up...from last fkn year. I dont know why. Maybe its becuase after the break up, she lost weight, got super hott (she was always really pretty) and started going out more. She's a fuckin hoe now. And i gues it makes me a little sad that it had to happen. I can't even go out without worrying about seeing her with someone else. Especially when she's with old friends of mine. The last time I saw her was on Valentines Day at a party. She, of course was with an aquantance of mine. What ended up happening is i started talkin shit and she threw beer at my face in front my friends. So I threw my Vodka in her face. Now, i didnt want to, but I had too. She started crying and i followed her out the house talkin shit. I was super drunk. Last time I saw her.
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I also think that im typing out this thread becuase im just in a horrible mood. I failed my Philosophy class which is the easiest class to take and I have horrible heartburn.
After I left today, I saw her truck and felt the need to spit all over it. Which I did. I also threw my McDonalds trash in the bed of her truck. Bitch.
But now it just brings me down. Because i would have killed anyone that did that if i were still with her. AND I feel really immature now, but i was just really pissed.
I also havent smoked in a few days, and i notice that when i dont smoke i turn into someone completely different. Its really getting to me, as if im dependant on it.
So, is it normal to still have those thought in the back of your head, a year after you break up? I just feel like a weak person now, and shes doing it do me. Why cant i escape?
Ugh so yeah, thats my post. Try and refrain from bitching me out. Im not a pest with her all the time, i dont even deal with her anymore. So yeah, i hope some of you read this bullshit sob thread. Im gonna gto try and get some herb.
I dont feel good about myself. Because of the break up...from last fkn year. I dont know why. Maybe its becuase after the break up, she lost weight, got super hott (she was always really pretty) and started going out more. She's a fuckin hoe now. And i gues it makes me a little sad that it had to happen. I can't even go out without worrying about seeing her with someone else. Especially when she's with old friends of mine. The last time I saw her was on Valentines Day at a party. She, of course was with an aquantance of mine. What ended up happening is i started talkin shit and she threw beer at my face in front my friends. So I threw my Vodka in her face. Now, i didnt want to, but I had too. She started crying and i followed her out the house talkin shit. I was super drunk. Last time I saw her.
clapI also think that im typing out this thread becuase im just in a horrible mood. I failed my Philosophy class which is the easiest class to take and I have horrible heartburn.
After I left today, I saw her truck and felt the need to spit all over it. Which I did. I also threw my McDonalds trash in the bed of her truck. Bitch.
But now it just brings me down. Because i would have killed anyone that did that if i were still with her. AND I feel really immature now, but i was just really pissed.
I also havent smoked in a few days, and i notice that when i dont smoke i turn into someone completely different. Its really getting to me, as if im dependant on it.
So, is it normal to still have those thought in the back of your head, a year after you break up? I just feel like a weak person now, and shes doing it do me. Why cant i escape?
Ugh so yeah, thats my post. Try and refrain from bitching me out. Im not a pest with her all the time, i dont even deal with her anymore. So yeah, i hope some of you read this bullshit sob thread. Im gonna gto try and get some herb.
. dudes are crazy after breakups, no matter how that shit goes (good or bad). all I can say is that you are already self-aware enough to get productive, and use this shit as fuel. emerge from the fire as a phoenix, that's my philosophy. and no drunken dials/texts, that one gets me into trouble
