Unhappy

Whats up peeps,

I already have an account on RIU but didnt want to use it for this thread.

Here goes,

I have had a shit life and at 23 1/2 years old i'v had enough of this shit.

i have had a rough childhood, beaten up by my dad nearly every week from about 6 years old until i was 16, forced to go boxing 6 nights a weeks weather i liked it or not, then i'd get a beating when i got home anyway for 1 reason or another.

School was ok, i had a few friends back then but not too many, anyway, i left and got a job when i was 15, always have worked hard and dont seen to get anywhere.

I was hanging around rough people for a few years just because they seen to like me, i just wanted to have friends. I was getting into all sorts of trouble and worked out i was just being used.

So, i get to 19, meet a girl who i thought was nice, a few months later she got pregnant and i have a beautiful little girl.

Any way things wasnt great between the mother and me and we end3d up splitting up, after both of us had cheated.

So, i had a bit of luck and got a great job doing what i love, i found an amazing girl and things were going great, But good things never seem to last long with me.

Now, i lost the job through losing my temper with someone at work, but my girl stood by me, she is one in a million.

Now after a few montsh our relationship is very rocky and she doesnt think she want to be with me anymore she says.

Now if i was normal, all of what i have described woulfd be easy to overcome, but i dont think i can.

I am unable to see my daughter because the mother will not let me, not that i have done anything wrong, just coz shes a cunt.


I am really fed up with my life, it just goes from bad to worse and i feel like i have no control over it anymore.

I dont have anyone to talk to so i just bottle it all up and have been doing it since i can remember, i'm just fucking lost and have had enough.

All i want is to happy, to be a dad to my little girl and a boyfriend to the very special girl.

I'm so unhappy and have nowhere or anyone to talk about things with.


Thanks for listening rollitup,

Have a good day..

Sorry to hear your troubles dude. I know things can be hard and the world has a funny way of treating us. I believe in everything happens for a reason even if we do not understand why and it never makes sense. I recently lost my granddad who I was very close too and I don't understand why it was so sudden and he was a very loved man by so many people. But throughout I remain things do happen for good reasons beyond our control. Nothing I can say will make things better but all I can say is keep your chin up sunshine.

Your situation sounds extremely similar to that of one of my closest friends, 23 yrs. old, unable to see his son, lost his job, but has a great girl to help him through it, i know this site is not meant for this kind of stuff, but i've seen this before...just never give up man, keep trying...for the sake of your daughter, things will start looking up...

Good Luck Buddy...

It's alrite, you could be a starving 23 year old riddled and fleeing for your life from Government militia.

Get yourself some a gram of cheese (proven to help when you feel depressed), walk up the nearest hill you can find that will give you a work out and go and watch the world go by

Get some fresh air and clear your head.

I've had a bad time too, I'm 22, got screwed out of a job and 5 years redundancy pay, lost my house, fell out with family, got arrested, got jumped and ended up with a fractured eye socked and my backs fucked now. Lost a 1/2 small crop due to stupid friends. The list goes on.

Punch bag helps too

Things just go from bad to worse, Everytime.

It feels pointless being around.

noone has had the pefect child hood. don't blame that on decisions you made to fight at work or cheat on your girl , now life is a bitch , it may get worse before it kills you in the end , no matter what comes up you have to deal with it , you have a daughter and in time you will get to spend time with her stop thinking you deserve everything you want right now the best things in life take time, work on it and things will change , it may take a wile so man up its your girl who will gain from this best of luck .....rob

No one works harder than me Rob, i do everythink possible and still get nowhere.

I see people do as little as possible and cruise through life, yet i'm very hard working, caring and really try my best but still fail.

I dont want nothing i dont deserve, but i deserve more then what i have.

then don't stop now just keep going , the things we get when we work hard for them are sweeter then when those people who manage to skate by get the hand outs life is hard ,keep on pushing its all we have ....rob

Go to the courts to get some help if you are at the bottom. They will help you see your kid and if you take the judge aside and ask him I bet he will help you with anger management too. I too had a shitty life and can kind of relate. I had no dad in the picture and a mentally crippled mom to describe her nicely. Suck it up dude and stop doing it for yourself. You have someone else to do it for now. I do not know where you live but most courts even if you are behind on child support will help, she can not keep you from your kid. The law will help you but be rational and patient. I have my little girl sitting right next to me now and I feel for you bro but suck it up and dont ever give up or you are a pussy.

hempstead said:

Go to the courts to get some help if you are at the bottom. They will help you see your kid and if you take the judge aside and ask him I bet he will help you with anger management too. I too had a shitty life and can kind of relate. I had no dad in the picture and a mentally crippled mom to describe her nicely. Suck it up dude and stop doing it for yourself. You have someone else to do it for now. I do not know where you live but most courts even if you are behind on child support will help, she can not keep you from your kid. The law will help you but be rational and patient. I have my little girl sitting right next to me now and I feel for you bro but suck it up and dont ever give up or you are a pussy.

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i'm on my way to solicitors now, it starts now.

Thanks for the shoulder.

Even when the world is falling on top of me, I never lose hope, pessimism is an emotion not a philosophy - Immortal Technique

You just need to wait it out bro and keep thinking. There is always someone way worse off than you, like the children in Iraq lost in the sand. Think of them next time life fucks you. Learning new things has always helped me cope with whatever it is that was gnawing at me also. Try learning about something new and I bet you will see things will get better from there. The more you know of yourself and the world around you, the more you will see the world offers you opportunities all the time. Ultimate awareness comes from when you seek the truth. Stay up bro.

Just remember dude, it isnt about you anymore. Don't give up.

fukin saweet ...go hard man.chin up

The worst thing that could happen in your situation is for you not to learn anything from what's happened. This world is a place of pleasure and pain, of ups and downs. The worst times in your life should be taken as learning experiences, if anything. Next week you could have an even better job and you might realize that your "one in a million" girl is just a selfish bitch and hook up with your new boss's hot daughter. You are only 23½ Years old. Things are going to get a lot worse and a lot better. You may not be able to see your daughter now but when she grows up she will understand that her mother is a horrible cunt for stopping her from seeing you. It sounds like all your current GF wants you to do is change but I don't know you.
It sounds kinda like my situation except I was 25 and two kids. Looking back I can see that everything turned out for the better. It couldn't have happened any better even though I thought about suicide (self pity) it was so hard. I'm 28 now, I've got a great GF(med student), I live by the beach now, weekend custody, indoor hydroponics etc. etc. When things seem like they can't get any worse, blow up a mailbox or throw a cat out of a speeding vehicle (J/K) whatever makes you feel better. Don't drop cinder blocks onto trains from over passes though (you get into trouble for that).

On my way there now,

I fucking hate his life, i am so generous, i have help out some many people , money wise or just being there for them a their hard times, but when i look around i have no one.

People who were friends when i was rolling in money are nowhere to be seen(not that i want money from them) , When friends are an hard time i am always the first people they come to, aways me, but when i need help, a friend to talk to, some one to help me, no one gives a flying fuck,

I have got 1 friend who actually cares about me and my life, a true friend and he's just not around at the moment, i have spend years blowing thousands on drugs and friends, but when cash runs out so did the friends i had.

I feel like going around to their HQ and taking some revenge, after all, they have used me, sponged off me all the way, i have even gotten a few of them jobs, but they have just dropped me, half of these people im on about didnt have a penny when i meet then, so i help them out, do anything for them but get no favours back, no phone calls, no nothing.

I feel like taking revenge on them, i mean, if they are sitting there taking the piss out of me, laughing at me behind my back, then maybe i should give them something to talk about.

hempstead said:

Just remember dude, it isnt about you anymore. Don't give up.

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This.

Hang in there for your little girl.

i can count my friends on one hand ,the people that i hang around with is countless , i wouldnt expect them to do anything for me but my true friends would be there for me ,are these people friends of just people you hang around with

Or you could just blow up their mail box..... I like the colors

cinder blocks diden't you make national news on that one crutch?

robert 14617 said:

i can count my friends on one hand ,the people that i hang around with is countless , i wouldnt expect them to do anything for me but my true friends would be there for me ,are these people friends of just people you hang around with

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I honestly though they were my friends, 2 are family members, the rest i have known nearly 10 years, we have all hung around together for the last 8 years,

I was the centre of attention when i had monies, phone call and door knocking all day long, "can you help us out mate" "could i borrow" " i need some help"

But when it runs out, they are no where to be seen.

I think i'l be kicking some heads tonight.