Thank every2111111body, the strange thing about it is 90 percent of the time I am winning, my mind is clear, I understand that it will kill me, and I envision my daughter looking in my casket. And it is such a unbelievable HELL NO, but that 10 percent shows up and it is like I am on another planet, with no one the else around, and it feels so very good. I start taking and for the first week complete euphoria, then the walls begin to collapse, till everything is a living hell.
Clear my mind and I just completely forget about the hell, and all I think of is the euphoria..
Makes me wonder am I insane, or different from other people.
Should I move to a place where I will never see another human again.....
Mind TOTOALLy messed up right nowl
plantiviwion