Shootin fer mids (if I’m lucky!)

torontoke said:

Thanks a lot for the kind words man
Knowing others are also suffering doesn’t help make me feel any better bout anything but I do appreciate the thought.
You are most likely right about using my trim to offset my flower intake. A friend has been telling me that for over a year.
I’m just old school I guess and thus far have never found anything else that helps my body like phatties all day.

I’m sure I’m just having a few negative days in a row and I’ll pull out of it. I tend to think to much and over analyze everything.
Def overshare and talk to much but once I get the what if’s in my mind I’m stuck.
My best run with the leds was 2.2 grams a watt and one plant was 80something grams so in my mind I just keep thinking if I was smart and cloned everything then 8 of those would put me into the 3.2g a watt group.
It’s a lofty expectation and near impossible considering I don’t clone.
Perhaps that will be the next project.
Get my clone game going.

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Forget everything else and start making butter with your trim. Hell sometimes I don't even have cookies made and just take a bite of frozen butter. Especially for most physical pain butter is the way to go. I make mine in a slowcooker nowadays. Rougly 3-4 ounces of trim per lb of butter. Stir it a few times during the 24 hours in the slow cooker, then press drain through a few layers of cheese cloth. Then put in fridge overnight. The next day it is hardened off and seperated. Take the hard butter part out and quickly rinse the underside. I use 1/2 lb of the resulting butter per batch of cookies. Roughly a dozen cookies. 1/4 cookie seems to get me through the day with only a normal doobie or two half a doobie at a time. That is down from 10g smoking flowers a day and has much better results.
Not sure your pain source, but I am dealing with avoiding a fusion surgery on my neck and severe central nervous system damage, including losing the coating on my nerve cells.
Cheers and really can't recommend using your trim for butter enough!!!

torontoke said:

Haven’t been updating as much lately because I’ve kinda been letting negative things suck some of the wind from my sails.
My optimism for ever being able to stockpile meds is at a new low.
Sometimes in life you gotta know when to call something impossible and not worth the effort given the low percentage chance of succeeding.

Anyway the next run is in full bloom now and looking like another sub par harvest yield wise. Smelling good tho
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The lucky charms I substituted for a male is throwing some weird leaf traits and color.
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FWIW your qwest for mids keeps me fueled.

SSGrower said:

FWIW your qwest for mids keeps me fueled.

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Thanks man
I’m still blown away anyone is interested enough to follow along.

Working on my latest plan to stockpile/grow enough meds, realizing if a 12/12 from seed plant in a fucking 16oz solo cup in asingle square foot of space under 60w gets me 19g in 87 days, this might be the best approach to take. Germinating 3 every 14 days in 1 gal pots might be the better option than long veg cycles on relatively fewer plants specially for a small footprint. Might even run them at 10/10 if latets lab cab experiment pans out.

SSGrower said:

Working on my latest plan to stockpile/grow enough meds, realizing if a 12/12 from seed plant in a fucking 16oz solo cup in asingle square foot of space under 60w gets me 19g in 87 days, this might be the best approach to take. Germinating 3 every 14 days in 1 gal pots might be the better option than long veg cycles on relatively fewer plants specially for a small footprint. Might even run them at 10/10 if latets lab cab experiment pans out.

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I thought about going that route myself.
Only problem for me is the plant count.
I could probably fit 24 1 gals in my cabinet and if I got a zip each I’d do amazing in total weight.

I realize my biggest problem is 95% of the time I run from seed and play the pheno game. If I picked a nice yielder and ran 8 of them I think my goals are possible.

Only one way to find out

GreenHighlander said:

For the record I am kinda in the same boat as you . I have a license that allows me to grow 49 plants indoors. I have the space to do a huge upgrade but not the funds. Haven't been able to flower even half what I should be. I have been pheno hunting for 3+ years now and have shared tons of clones of keepers with other medical patients at no charge. My usage went way down once I started mixing edibles I make from trim with smoking.
I didn't produce anywhere near what I should of this past winter because of popping seeds. I feel your pain man, but I have also seen enough of your pictures to know you absolutely should not be blaming yourself. No matter how much it sucks. 3g a watt is a really, really high bar. I don't care what anyone says out their ass, there are very few who achieve even close to that.
Cheers

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I know people who can help with that problem.

torontoke said:

I thought about going that route myself.
Only problem for me is the plant count.
I could probably fit 24 1 gals in my cabinet and if I got a zip each I’d do amazing in total weight.

I realize my biggest problem is 95% of the time I run from seed and play the pheno game. If I picked a nice yielder and ran 8 of them I think my goals are possible.

Only one way to find out

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Keep at it. I think you're onto something.

ttystikk said:

I know people who can help with that problem.

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Help with which problem?

ttystikk said:

Keep at it. I think you're onto something.

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I’m either on something or just dreaming

Put the landos stash into 3 gals and I’m thinking I might flip the whole tent in a few days.
After all the males show I’ll pull them out and select the best ls male and put him outside til he busts and I’ll paint the lowers to make landos f2’s and lucky charms x ls,
Jjhp x ls
Still need to keep myself with some bud to smoke so I won’t just open pollinate them.

Should have me cropping two months in a row.
Also put 6 ecsd x dd and 6 gg4 lbls1 in to germ I’ll have to set the seedling cab back up. Hopefully I can shake loose a few bucks to get another led so I can really get it going.

Still growin

Sakura

Gg4 lbl s1

Jjhp


Ls in the tent are looking nice and a few have a leaf crinkle goin on

Tent got flipping last night.
Should be able to sex the plants in there in no time.
Cabinet is still humming along slow n steady.

Put 6 more deadhead og x lbl, and lc in to germ.

torontoke said:

I thought about going that route myself.
Only problem for me is the plant count.
I could probably fit 24 1 gals in my cabinet and if I got a zip each I’d do amazing in total weight.

I realize my biggest problem is 95% of the time I run from seed and play the pheno game. If I picked a nice yielder and ran 8 of them I think my goals are possible.

Only one way to find out

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Grow is looking good dude, nice work.
YoureY growing some quality plants. I'm sure if you ran multiple cuts of a 'big yielder' you'd pull more than enough to see you through.
I steuglst with yields too but I'm constantly running different strains, so I'm not too fussed.

SonsOfAvery said:

Grow is looking good dude, nice work.
YoureY growing some quality plants. I'm sure if you ran multiple cuts of a 'big yielder' you'd pull more than enough to see you through.
I steuglst with yields too but I'm constantly running different strains, so I'm not too fussed.

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Thanks a lot man
I’m sure everyone is right

A big producing mono crop is def the way to get max yield for sure.
Was delusional to think it was possible with 8 random plants from seed.
Can’t say I’m surprised or bummed out bout it tbh.

torontoke said:

Thanks a lot man
I’m sure everyone is right

A big producing mono crop is def the way to get max yield for sure.
Was delusional to think it was possible with 8 random plants from seed.
Can’t say I’m surprised or bummed out bout it tbh.

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It's all a learning curve dude. And with all the random seed popping, I'm sure you're just increasing your chances of finding something special.

I'm thinking of germinating some Bodhi's Satsuma and f2ing them if I can, I I only have 4 seeds though..it would be typical for me to get 4 females this time haha.

torontoke said:

Thanks a lot man
I’m sure everyone is right

A big producing mono crop is def the way to get max yield for sure.
Was delusional to think it was possible with 8 random plants from seed.
Can’t say I’m surprised or bummed out bout it tbh.

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I can tell you're enjoying yourself. As long as you have enough smoke, who cares about ultimate yields?

Then again if you're looking for a big number then monocropping is the way to go.

ttystikk said:

I can tell you're enjoying yourself. As long as you have enough smoke, who cares about ultimate yields?

Then again if you're looking for a big number then monocropping is the way to go.

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I’m not sure I’d say I’m enjoying myself.
My life has been upside down now for almost 6 years. Getting accustomed to disappointment and frustration tbh but still trying my best to smirk at failure.

Your right tho
It’s def more about keeping myself in meds then having bragging rights or unbelievable numbers. It’s not as tho I’m about to keep the black market stocked with green using 180watts lol

All you can do is keep your head up and keep on keepin on dude.
You should be proud of producing what you have off such a limited space man.
Cheers

GreenHighlander said:

All you can do is keep your head up and keep on keepin on dude.
You should be proud of producing what you have off such a limited space man.
Cheers

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Keeping on keeping on is a lot easier to say then do a lot of the time sir but I try.
Not as tho I have many options or solutions to choose from anyway.
Pride isn’t something I’m accustomed to feeling, not sure I’ll ever get to that stage.
On the flip side my ego won’t ever get out of control.

Got one sick looking plant. It’s the reveg hhp in the back right corner.
My own fault for once again not cloning it and flipping those. She seems mad at the world now, tried to bring her back but I’ll just let her finish and die off.

Sakura

Gg4 lbl

Jjhp
Lando/lc tent is in full orgy preparation mode. There’s two very different males in there one is tall and has the kushy large fans and the other is a branching beast that has been most explosive out of the bunch.
Most likely I’m only gonna use the branchy one for f2

torontoke said:

Thanks man
I’m still blown away anyone is interested enough to follow along.

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REALLY??? i think your journal is one of the more interesting ones. The buds are always looking like pretty good quality and the pics are great. Probably dont make much of a difference but ill keep following this thread until you stop posting