Hey...

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

You're one of the coolest peeps in T&T. We're worse off when you aren't here.

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

But you just got back

I love RIU, this is my only home.

I needed more support in my real life this year than any other year ever. But I’ve only been met with resistance. I know it’s not anyone’s job to do anything for me, I just thought I had more allies in life. It’s... disappointing... to say the least.

Jokes on me, I don’t have anyone in my corner. It’s just taking more adjustment than I had anticipated to do it all on my own

Metasynth said:

I love RIU, this is my only home.

I needed more support in my real life this year than any other year ever. But I’ve only been met with resistance. I know it’s not anyone’s job to do anything for me, I just thought I had more allies in life. It’s... disappointing... to say the least.

Jokes on me, I don’t have anyone in my corner. It’s just taking more adjustment than I had anticipated to do it all on my own

Click to expand...

I hope you have a cheerful holiday season.

I'm always glad to see ya,
Sometimes all you can do is hang in there. Shit will get better.

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

Seasonal blues?

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

me too.
It's a bigger world with more corners, and at the same you may just find that here is what you are looking for.
I have met some great folks here.

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

With that business idea you have to run with it. You have a group of us cheering you on hun.

You're always welcome here, Meta. We love you...

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

That’s horrible . I hope you feel better soon. Maybe going to a mental health counselor to talk and get some help to release the inner demons. Guided meditation. There is a free app I use called Insight Timer. Check out Tara Brach on there . She also has a book called Radical Acceptance you might wanna read . Good luck my friend.

Dr.Amber Trichome said:

That’s horrible . I hope you feel better soon. Maybe going to a mental health counselor to talk and get some help to release the inner demons...

Click to expand...

This is a good idea. I don’t really know where to start when asking for help

Metasynth said:

This is a good idea. I don’t really know where to start when asking for help

Click to expand...

It’s not hard Meta. Look online in your community for professionals therapists. Read some reviews.Call , see if they take your insurance . If $$ is an issue let them know and I am quite sure they can point you in the right direction . You have to make an effort to help yourself and follow through with it. Therapy can be painful and uncomfortable at first but the life changing benifits you can receive could be a huge positive game changer for you. It would be a great way to start the new year. Take care .

Yeah it’s mainly the money that worries me. I’ve already taken steps to talking to someone about finding affordable therapy.

Thanks for the well wishes everybody, once again RIU comes to the rescue. This community never ceases to amaze me, and I love you all.

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

I post here because this is pretty much the last place I feel welcome

Click to expand...

I know we've never talked but you're like a legend in here man. Come around more often!

Metasynth said:

Ever think this place would be better off without you? I been feeling that way recently. I feel sorta like the world has turned it’s back on me.

Click to expand...

I'd like your comment, but I disagree with your premise.

All your posts have a splash of awesome sauce and everyone is better for it.

Metasynth said:

Yeah it’s mainly the money that worries me. I’ve already taken steps to talking to someone about finding affordable therapy.

Thanks for the well wishes everybody, once again RIU comes to the rescue. This community never ceases to amaze me, and I love you all.

Click to expand...

High Meta, you dont see me much because I lurk mainly, but I enjoy your posts.

I would like to recommend a safe and quite setting with someone you trust to watch over you and doing between 7 and 15 grams of dried psilocybin mushrooms. 5 hours into that trip you will have accumulated a decade of therapy. Then follow up with a weekly or bi-weekly microdose of psilocybin. Megadose for the win. Google... Golden Teachers and the Art of Soul Purging.

You will find an article I wrote on my personal experience with megadose and self therapy.

Best of luck.
Peace

In regards to that post I recall an earlier conversation we had that you had found a medicine that added a shimmery glow to your day in small amounts. I try not to always suggest drugs for issues but it was apparent from our talks you where in a better place because of it. Stay up buddy!

Metasynth said:

Yeah it’s mainly the money that worries me. I’ve already taken steps to talking to someone about finding affordable therapy.

Thanks for the well wishes everybody, once again RIU comes to the rescue. This community never ceases to amaze me, and I love you all.

Click to expand...

HookahsGarden said:

High Meta, you dont see me much because I lurk mainly, but I enjoy your posts.

I would like to recommend a safe and quite setting with someone you trust to watch over you and doing between 7 and 15 grams of dried psilocybin mushrooms. 5 hours into that trip you will have accumulated a decade of therapy. Then follow up with a weekly or bi-weekly microdose of psilocybin. Megadose for the win. Google... Golden Teachers and the Art of Soul Purging.

You will find an article I wrote on my personal experience with megadose and self therapy.

Best of luck.
Peace

Click to expand...

What a link. You have me totally joesin for some shrooms . Where can I get these shrooms you speak of? R u shroomking?fasinating

Yes I am ShroomKing.

I picked mine in Texas.
You might be able to grow your own though. Lots of legit places to get spores on IG. Best of luck. Peace