Nine Years Trapped Inside My Own Head

pokey

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the thing about pot is there are different strains that have different effects on people. so will bring you down, some will pick you up. a lot of people just think "stoned" when you say pot. it's not like that for me. 90% of the time you would not know i was high.
Could you give me a list of your strains that people can't tell you are high?
 

MatsuMist

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Its more of the way you present your self, than strains IMO.

I smoke down before i go to work every morning for the last year. I work at 100% everyday and have one of the more difficult and multitasking jobs in the place. But I also don't need to hide it since, there are only a few people who start at the same time and they're usually smoking with me.
 

CanadianCoyote

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Thanks for the book recs! I'll check them out when I have time. I've found that D.J. Conway's books are helpful with meditation (especially "Flying Without a Broom").

Relaxation has to be practiced and practiced hard, ironically. ^^

I really have only one suggestion.
Maybe you guys are already into it. But I'm just trying to help, so here ya go!
This is directed to anyone felling even remotely depressed, or curious.
The advice is to read some books, and actually practice the stuff in them.

A overview of the these books: Stuff that is absent from mainstream culture, but is vital to happiness as well as balance.

Mantak Chia
Awaken Healing Energy Through the Tao
Healing Love Through the Tao: Cultivating Female Sexual Energy
Taoist Secrets of Love: Cultivating Male Sexual Energy
Transforming Stress Into Vitality

Anything by Stewart Swerdlow....
-Blue Blood, True Blood: Conflict and Creation
-The True Reality of Sexuality
-Journey Into Hyperspace

Sangra Ingerman
Shamanic Journeying

Everyone just is in search of Energy...High Energy is happiness, energy leaks lead into depression. Leaks can be physical or metaphysical or psychic... These books will help to seal the leaks. We as humans do not need to search outside ourself for energy source, But when we deplete our energy... usually we have no other choice but to seek EXTERNAL ENERGY. So Either you don't know that you have a inextinguishable INTERNAL ENERGY supply, or you think it is too difficult to achieve. It really comes down to the point of... ARE YOU ACTUALLY READY TO FEEL GOOD AND HAPPY? Or do you still want to keep digging deeper. You cant know peace until you have had suffering.

Again, I can't help you. I can only help you help yourself.
=D Enjoy, Any questions, Ask!

Edit:
As far as the energy stuff goes, when looking at the Two Sexes, Practices really break down into the individual sex at first.
However, Once the energy leaks are sealed it becomes very general, and the two sexes are generally the same.
 

CanadianCoyote

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Ugh, I can't be stoned when I'm working. I've tried, and it just doesn't work for me.

Its more of the way you present your self, than strains IMO.

I smoke down before i go to work every morning for the last year. I work at 100% everyday and have one of the more difficult and multitasking jobs in the place. But I also don't need to hide it since, there are only a few people who start at the same time and they're usually smoking with me.
 

CanadianCoyote

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Y'know, this actually gave me a lift. I'm in the middle of a dose-reduction-induced state of mania (LET'S CLEAN OUR ROOM AT 3:30AM! AND MAKE SURE ALL THE PICTURES IN THE HOUSE ARE STRAIGHT!! HOLY SHIT, WE HAVE MUFFIN MIX! I'M GONNA MAKE MUFFINS!!) ... when this wears off, I'm going to be a slug that's praying for death to come.

Gonna hang in there, though. :)

Be at one with the wind
Even if it's a struggle
Make this your priority
 

Dfunk

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Cannabis is illegal mostly beacause of it's positive effects. Just think, If more people were using the world would much more peaceful. This is not good world business simply because it would hurt money. More high people=less wars & better understanding of one another=less profits for the international bankers. It's so much more profitable being illegal because they can fund government operations to eradicate crops & this in turn produces more revenue for the banks because of that wonderful thing our money has attached to it called INTEREST!
 

Dfunk

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That's what they want you to think. You should check out a film on Google called Esoteric Agenda, it was very interesting.
 

CanadianCoyote

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Really? I'll have to check that out!

Right now, I'm heading out for the weekend. Haven't been away from the house in months and months ... It's gonna be sweet!

That's what they want you to think. You should check out a film on Google called Esoteric Agenda, it was very interesting.
 

Dank O Licious

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Dude, your doc just wants you to buy the pills( more $$ for her). tell him/her to go fuck himself/herself and get off them meds. its all in your head man.
 

CanadianCoyote

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That's what I'm up to. ^^ It's gonna take awhile, as stopping these meds abruptly can cause me to have seizures....


Dude, your doc just wants you to buy the pills( more $$ for her). tell him/her to go fuck himself/herself and get off them meds. its all in your head man.
 

Manjinken

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one time i tried a certain substance and i accidentally created 5 years i spent in tibet as a false memory in my head. i got really pissed off.
 

SouthernOregonOrganic

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Manjinken, did u really imagine 5 years of living in Tibet because of a pharmaceutical?

Canadian coyote, i feel you totally. Since 3rd Grade i was/have been on a laundry list of pills. You can not just quit like most of these people are suggesting. There mentally and physically addictive. You should not rush the process of weaning off your meds.And if i were still in your position, i would get a second opinion as to what meds you should still take and what meds you should get off of.
Your physician wasnt trying to screw you over by prescribing you the numerous pills. Even though money may have been an underling factor, he still probably had you best interest at hand. He's not paid to bring excessive distress upon his patients, he's paid to relieve it. So like i said, a second opinion would be a good idea, especially from some one who practices alternative style medicine.thats just my opinion
 

Dank O Licious

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Manjinken, did u really imagine 5 years of living in Tibet because of a pharmaceutical?

Canadian coyote, i feel you totally. Since 3rd Grade i was/have been on a laundry list of pills. You can not just quit like most of these people are suggesting. There mentally and physically addictive. You should not rush the process of weaning off your meds.And if i were still in your position, i would get a second opinion as to what meds you should still take and what meds you should get off of.
Your physician wasnt trying to screw you over by prescribing you the numerous pills. Even though money may have been an underling factor, he still probably had you best interest at hand. He's not paid to bring excessive distress upon his patients, he's paid to relieve it. So like i said, a second opinion would be a good idea, especially from some one who practices alternative style medicine.thats just my opinion

Dont kill his motivation. yea its ganna take dicipline but he can do it
 

SouthernOregonOrganic

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Im in no way trying to discourage coyote from stopping his/her meds. Im now completely prescription free:) While pills may be bad for your liver and possibly your over all quality of life, you have to wonder; did the doctor prescribe me these pills for nothing? You have to remember, MD'S go through years and years of rigorous training. Its one of the toughest professions to make it in. Doctors are Not Stupid, as much as some hippie douche bags would want u to believe. I commend coyote for having the courage to quite the regimen of medication he/she has been prescribed.
If you honestly believe in your heart that what the doctor has given you is Wrong, then by all means do every thing you can to get your self in a better situation.
 

CanadianCoyote

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I'm a girl, BTW. ^^

When I was put on the medicine, I was given the impression that it would be a temporary thing. Just until I leveled out (if there really is such a thing). I was 15 when they started shoving pills in me, and now it's been proven that giving anti-depressants to teens can cause some serious damage.

The main reason I wanted to get off of these meds was ... well ... they didn't seem to be working. I'd take a huge dose every single day and feel like all I'd done was waste a lot of money. The med I'm getting off of is extremely expensive - even with insurance. I've had my share if incompetant doctors - ones who didn't seem to listen to what I was saying - but the one I have now is very supportive of my goal and is helping me through it. He understands why I want to do it and has seen first hand how much my mood/energy level/overall sense of wellbeing has improved since I started down this road.

I reduced my dose last Monday, I'm now taking 1/8th of my original dose, and when my prescription runs out ... that's it. I'm done. I've felt like absolute shit since Monday ... but I know that it'll pass. I have a good feeling about the future, something I've been lacking for nearly a decade.
 
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