After 20+ years, the person I set free, not by choice (TDY) has come back into my life. For 6 years she was the measuring stick upon which every woman to enter my life was measured. It wasnt right and it wasnt fair, I know i let a few keepers slip through.
I asked the powers that be to let me have her once again and I would drop everything and anyone to be with her again. I remember sitting on the beach and looking at the orange moon over the water and wishing for one more chance.
I have been texting her for a week now and the first phone call went to voicemail as she was nervous, too nervous to answer, I was pretty baked with my dog when i called, out in the woods. She thanked me for leaving a voicemail so she could hear my voice again. We split in the early 90's before cellphones or the internet.
i have been happily married to my best friend for 12 years and that will not change. I am not a lucky guy, I am the guy that gets shit on almost all the time, well before 30ish that was me.
I have it made with my wife, she is the best thing to happen to me in along time and I will not fuck that up.
I am going into this new rekindled friendship, hoping for that, a friendship and nothing more.
People at work noticed me smiling more, being nice to the underlings, etc.....
To all the people out there that have uttered the phrase, If you love something set it free, and if it comes back to you its your to keep....hoping against hope to have that entity one more time, well....mine came back and I am scared knowing how she made me feel before.
But i also understand we are older, she has kids, i know she was married dont know if she is know or not.
she was a huge part of my life and i am hoping for the best.
before we got married we took a test to see out strengths and weakness in faith, spirituality and religion and we rocked out a 98%. The pastor looked at it and said there are 2% of the world out there made for you, take the chance and stick with each other, laughing as 98% rocks. I am thinking ya I know the 2%.
Thoughts...comments???
I asked the powers that be to let me have her once again and I would drop everything and anyone to be with her again. I remember sitting on the beach and looking at the orange moon over the water and wishing for one more chance.
I have been texting her for a week now and the first phone call went to voicemail as she was nervous, too nervous to answer, I was pretty baked with my dog when i called, out in the woods. She thanked me for leaving a voicemail so she could hear my voice again. We split in the early 90's before cellphones or the internet.
i have been happily married to my best friend for 12 years and that will not change. I am not a lucky guy, I am the guy that gets shit on almost all the time, well before 30ish that was me.
I have it made with my wife, she is the best thing to happen to me in along time and I will not fuck that up.
I am going into this new rekindled friendship, hoping for that, a friendship and nothing more.
People at work noticed me smiling more, being nice to the underlings, etc.....
To all the people out there that have uttered the phrase, If you love something set it free, and if it comes back to you its your to keep....hoping against hope to have that entity one more time, well....mine came back and I am scared knowing how she made me feel before.
But i also understand we are older, she has kids, i know she was married dont know if she is know or not.
she was a huge part of my life and i am hoping for the best.
before we got married we took a test to see out strengths and weakness in faith, spirituality and religion and we rocked out a 98%. The pastor looked at it and said there are 2% of the world out there made for you, take the chance and stick with each other, laughing as 98% rocks. I am thinking ya I know the 2%.
Thoughts...comments???