[I'm sure this isn't the right place to post this... but it seemed like the best option and I really like this forum.]
Hello, 22 year old here, have been smoking pot extremely heavily for about a year now. I've smoked on and off since 16, but this last year I came into some money... and came into some problems... and started smoking heavily. I have been going through about an eighth every couple days of dro, I normally had smoked just corn and never really got very high. I've gotten a connect that has been giving me some of the best weed I've ever smoked.... the point is, I have been smoking RELIGOUSLY. I have been high EVERY second of the day for the past 6 months ATLEAST and probably 80 percent of the total time I have been awake for the past year. And not just high... REALLY high. At work... at home... with family... near hallucinating I was so high. I am not saying this to brag, I'm saying this to express my pain. I've also done acid and shrooms a few times.... but never had these horrible feelings. Xanax too. Not with weed either. I've been slightly depressed before... but thats t.
I have a surgery coming up on tuesday, and I had to quit smoking beginning yesterday morning. The surgeon believes marijuana MIGHT effect anesthetics, so I'm taking his advice and not smoking. Also I plan on not smoking after the surgery, and just doing their pain killers they prescribe.... and I'm hoping that after a month (how long it will take to heal before I can walk) that I can completely quit my crazy addiction.... and try to use some moderation with smoking.
I'm not really sure what my goal is by posting this... I just feel SO hopeless. I feel angry at everyone, I keep yelling at my girl and my father for no reason. I feel mad... and sad.... but I don't know why... so I'm not sure if I feel mad and sad.... I'm very confused... All food just doesnt look good. I'm on the fat side... 240 pounds 5 foot 8, I usually eat a lot. 1 day would be.... 2 totinos pizza, a sandwich, some chips, bag of poptarts.... an italian ice... and maybe something else on a more hungry day. The point is I have a healthy appetite. Yesterday I had 1 totinos pizza... literally that is it. I have tons of food in the house.... and NOTHING looks good. I went to walmart today.... went through EVERY aisle. EVERY single one. Nothing on any of the racks looked good. I went to fast food places today... and ended up throwing away the burger I bought. And I'm CHEAP.
I also can't sleep. I stayed up all last night.... its 8:14 pm... haven't slept in close to 2 days. I laid in bed for 3 hours last night, got up and watched all the godfathers again. Didn't enjoy it at all. I feel like everything just sucks. I'm losing my damn mind.
How long does this last?
Any tricks to stop it?
How can I sleep?
How can I eat?
And.... what I think is the underlying problem for me.... Are all my opinions on legalizing marijuana just my addiction talking? It's such a beautiful plant, I tell everyone it should be legal... am I wrong? Should this plant be smoked? Rekindle my love for this plant.... I just hate it right now, so much for making me like this.
Hello, 22 year old here, have been smoking pot extremely heavily for about a year now. I've smoked on and off since 16, but this last year I came into some money... and came into some problems... and started smoking heavily. I have been going through about an eighth every couple days of dro, I normally had smoked just corn and never really got very high. I've gotten a connect that has been giving me some of the best weed I've ever smoked.... the point is, I have been smoking RELIGOUSLY. I have been high EVERY second of the day for the past 6 months ATLEAST and probably 80 percent of the total time I have been awake for the past year. And not just high... REALLY high. At work... at home... with family... near hallucinating I was so high. I am not saying this to brag, I'm saying this to express my pain. I've also done acid and shrooms a few times.... but never had these horrible feelings. Xanax too. Not with weed either. I've been slightly depressed before... but thats t.
I have a surgery coming up on tuesday, and I had to quit smoking beginning yesterday morning. The surgeon believes marijuana MIGHT effect anesthetics, so I'm taking his advice and not smoking. Also I plan on not smoking after the surgery, and just doing their pain killers they prescribe.... and I'm hoping that after a month (how long it will take to heal before I can walk) that I can completely quit my crazy addiction.... and try to use some moderation with smoking.
I'm not really sure what my goal is by posting this... I just feel SO hopeless. I feel angry at everyone, I keep yelling at my girl and my father for no reason. I feel mad... and sad.... but I don't know why... so I'm not sure if I feel mad and sad.... I'm very confused... All food just doesnt look good. I'm on the fat side... 240 pounds 5 foot 8, I usually eat a lot. 1 day would be.... 2 totinos pizza, a sandwich, some chips, bag of poptarts.... an italian ice... and maybe something else on a more hungry day. The point is I have a healthy appetite. Yesterday I had 1 totinos pizza... literally that is it. I have tons of food in the house.... and NOTHING looks good. I went to walmart today.... went through EVERY aisle. EVERY single one. Nothing on any of the racks looked good. I went to fast food places today... and ended up throwing away the burger I bought. And I'm CHEAP.
I also can't sleep. I stayed up all last night.... its 8:14 pm... haven't slept in close to 2 days. I laid in bed for 3 hours last night, got up and watched all the godfathers again. Didn't enjoy it at all. I feel like everything just sucks. I'm losing my damn mind.
How long does this last?
Any tricks to stop it?
How can I sleep?
How can I eat?
And.... what I think is the underlying problem for me.... Are all my opinions on legalizing marijuana just my addiction talking? It's such a beautiful plant, I tell everyone it should be legal... am I wrong? Should this plant be smoked? Rekindle my love for this plant.... I just hate it right now, so much for making me like this.