The Experience that I almost lost

I just wanted to post this as it was just to explain my experience to SOMEONE as the entire trip was spent by myself and wasn't able to confide what was going on the entire time to anyone. I ended up trading the majority of some recent mush I had picked out of a field (about 5g's dry) for 3 hits of the fluff I had given to a friend who never took it and god in heaven was that intense! Not something I plan on doing by myself just yet at lest until I have a better center of balance with my mind and am ready to properly lose it again! I might just not be experienced enough but I was on the edge of a psychotic breakdown not from the mental stimulation and thinking but from the intense kaleidoscopic visuals that were constantly morphing into each other, I could barely see let alone think! I was seeing patterns forming onto patterns in a sort of second lair of reality. I felt as though I was constantly walking into a living Alex Grey painting that I was not able to fully become apart of. I had to constantly walk just to make everything look like a normal 8th dose of cubes and if I stopped and looked at something I would just see the entire field of vision start forming into an infinite amount of patterns and faces. It was a difficult trip, I had noticed I was showing the signs of a panic attack at the majority of the peak, elevated heart rate, un-necessary deep breathing and a unnerving feeling I just couldn't shake but Lucy seems to shine her brightest in her darkest hours. An the experience is something I can't believe I almost missed! I always had considered shrooms better than LSD for the introspective and even mind fucking visual stimulation but she has proven me other wise tonight! I still am lightly tripping with visuals like that of 2c-i at 2:30am after dosing at around 5:00pm. Feel free to take the thread down if you want mods, I just needed an outlet to explain the experience to another person but wasn't able to as I was by myself the entire time . Also I started tripping in a crowded mall by myself so I guess I put myself in a bad trip situation (but let's be honest, the bad trips are always the most memorable)... very claustrophobic feeling. The air inside felt fake, like ritzed up with perfume and mall food, the fresh air of outside was a great relief and something I could never pass up. I also stepped into a Best Buy to use the bathroom before stuff started becoming intense and thought to myself why people bothered to buy so many useless highly overpriced technology for cheap mental stimulation when they could do some psychedelic or even just go enjoy nature. It seems our culture today is completely revolved around waiting for the new iphone or T.V. to come out and never really appreciate the simple things in life, trying to fill a empty void in their life they have been instilled to believe they have through big business which can only be filled with money and new technological toys.

I think you learned alot from this trip, but may not be able to tell the trees from the woods yet, because it is so close.
In all honesty you had a pretty good trip, and in time, you will remember it fondly, but word of advice, when you do decide to go fore these doses, be prepared, infact, be intent, on makeing the voyage an internal one. The world will still be here when you come back.

I'm glad you are also wakeing up to the consumerist cultre that is forced on us.

I have stopped buying stuff. Only things I spend money on is food (natural unprocessed and without preservatives), Good water, and 100% pure fruit juice with no preservatives, and pot when I don't have any left from the summer grow. And I feel like I'm living like a king.

that was deep anc.

ANC said:

I think you learned alot from this trip, but may not be able to tell the trees from the woods yet, because it is so close.
In all honesty you had a pretty good trip, and in time, you will remember it fondly, but word of advice, when you do decide to go fore these doses, be prepared, infact, be intent, on makeing the voyage an internal one. The world will still be here when you come back.

I'm glad you are also wakeing up to the consumerist cultre that is forced on us.

I have stopped buying stuff. Only things I spend money on is food (natural unprocessed and without preservatives), Good water, and 100% pure fruit juice with no preservatives, and pot when I don't have any left from the summer grow. And I feel like I'm living like a king.

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I applaud you bro.... my life dream is to live off the land, with survival of me and my family as my occupation. I'm ready to go for it, cant get my wife on board though

It's tough man, the most my wife would let us get off grid is a roof of solar panels, lol. Still though, it's enough to cover half the electricity costs during the winter and about 90% during the summer. Huge savings!

I would also love to completely live off the grid, it's just not going to happen in the near future though, which is fine

we'll all be off the grid soon according to some folks...

to swag, glad you've seen the joys of lucy... gotta take her all at once and hold on

That experience shook you huh Swag? That's the essence of a psychedelic trip it sometimes leads you where you "think" you don't want to go, but when its all said and done you appreciate it that much more. A drug is all about biofeedback that is good and leaves us wanting more when that depleted source of good feeling is gone. Psychedelics tend to do the opposite... they can leave a permanent mark on existence, a stamp of everlasting approval!

Exactly, I really was thrown into the trip after I had smoked some spice. I had taken the 3 hits about 1-2hr before and was experiencing no visuals and only a small amount of abstract thinking an nice body buzz. I smoked a joint of spice in front of my mirror and when I put the roach down I looked into the mirror and started seeing little speckled colorful dots forming on the mirror I said "OK, blast off". I went into my bedroom sat at my computer and started seeing faces and patterns in just everything. I really don't seem to get the entire effect of any acid without the help of a CB agnostic or maybe I'm just use to the added potentiation? Though when I wasn't able to smoke I was able to lose it on some DOX blotters and mushrooms. Either way after that joint the trip started good but then that feeling set in where you're coming up just to fast. I blame some of the panic like state on the fact that spice has been known to cause paranoia and extreme anxiety an I had no type of marijuana or spice tolerance so the joint got me good. Like I said before I had been tripping for awhile so I guess I was at the peak of the trip but with no visuals until I smoked the joint so it just got shoved in my face all at once. Though like the title of the thread says it is an experience I almost lost if I had just decided to do the mushrooms and am truly glad I didn't. This 1 difficult trip is easily equal to 3 good/OK ones. I got up this morning feeling refreshed and actually wanted to do things I just need get done but am to much of a procrastinator/ lazy SOB to do, such as biking to the store for groceries and doing my laundry. I felt a new revitalization of life which I would more than willing go through another difficult experience to obtain!

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A drug is all about biofeedback that is good and leaves us wanting more when that depleted source of good feeling is gone. Psychedelics tend to do the opposite... they can leave a permanent mark on existence, a stamp of everlasting approval!

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This is the absolute truth!

Swag said:

Exactly, I really was thrown into the trip after I had smoked some spice. I had taken the 3 hits about 1-2hr before and was experiencing no visuals and only a small amount of abstract thinking an nice body buzz. I smoked a joint of spice in front of my mirror and when I put the roach down I looked into the mirror and started seeing little speckled colorful dots forming on the mirror I said "OK, blast off". I went into my bedroom sat at my computer and started seeing faces and patterns in just everything. I really don't seem to get the entire effect of any acid without the help of a CB agnostic or maybe I'm just use to the added potentiation? Though when I wasn't able to smoke I was able to lose it on some DOX blotters and mushrooms. Either way after that joint the trip started good but then that feeling set in where you're coming up just to fast. I blame some of the panic like state on the fact that spice has been known to cause paranoia and extreme anxiety an I had no type of marijuana or spice tolerance so the joint got me good. Like I said before I had been tripping for awhile so I guess I was at the peak of the trip but with no visuals until I smoked the joint so it just got shoved in my face all at once. Though like the title of the thread says it is an experience I almost lost if I had just decided to do the mushrooms and am truly glad I didn't. This 1 difficult trip is easily equal to 3 good/OK ones. I got up this morning feeling refreshed and actually wanted to do things I just need get done but am to much of a procrastinator/ lazy SOB to do, such as biking to the store for groceries and doing my laundry. I felt a new revitalization of life which I would more than willing go through another difficult experience to obtain!

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So the WoW really WHOA-ED you

Very much I can't wait to get some more once I get some money together in a week or so