IT is because you are not there before you depart.
What exactly is the feeling you seek?
the high feeling, i believe ive only been high twice. since ive started (6 months) but i dont do weed all the time. 2-3 time a fortnight perhaps
it felt like i had no problems and i was just happy, and my body especially my head felt light in a way, and everything about it was goooooddd. and everything that was going on seemed so interesting and good, i was listening to music and it sounded soooooooooo goood. and then i started watching the cleveland show for the first time and just could not stop laughing
its actualyl kind of hard to explain what i want, but maybe i do get high, but ive been really high twice????
but whenever i usually smoke weed i just feel really relaxed and go to sleep, but if i look in the mirror my eyes will still be red and squinty.