John30
Member
Hey guys, I just joined the site after googling and finding some information about medical marijuana and found some good stuff.
I'm a 29 year old guy in NC. I've had some serious PTSD for about 15 years from a childhood issue that has caused years of terror, panic, anxiety, depression, anger, attempted suicide, etc. I was a smoker of MJ from about age 15 to a few years ago when I had to move in with my parents as I started to get worse (not sure if I'm naturally getting worse or if some of the medications are doing it as they have in the past).
So I'm now in NC near Lake Norman in the city of Denver. I have no car, no friends here, and yep...no medical marijuana.
I'm pretty scared at this point. I don't think I'm going to make it before NC finally ends up legalizing medical use. All I want is to be able to have a few mature plants going at a time as I love to grow (can't grow in my parents house but I can smoke it in my room).
So I don't know what to do and I'm desperate. All I can do is try to find a safe source here within 30 miles of me, which is tough meeting new people like that for me, especially with all my social phobia due to the PTSD. I do so well for a whole day after just a few bowl hits, it's so cruel for me and others to suffer when the medicine is right there and it works.
I can't work anymore, exercise, socialize, or do the painting and other art I used to do. All of this terrible negative energy surrounds me.
What can I do guys, I really need help badly. Should I email a bunch of dispensaries in other States explaining my situation and asking for work, just minimum wage to pay for a place to live, and pay for the normal things? I can grow it myself but it would be nice to have a dispensary around to try the different strains as I have no idea what would be best for me.
Thanks for any help my new friends, I'm looking forward to being happy again. If you know anything I can do, any help, tips, advice, job offer, friend who happens to live close, etc....anything that could help me get to the next step to recovery would be awesome and I would very much appreciate it. I really don't want to die anymore.
I want what I had before it was stripped away from me, and marijuana heals all that stuff and lets my creativity, friendliness, humor, and life pour out of me.
Thanks again,
John
I'm a 29 year old guy in NC. I've had some serious PTSD for about 15 years from a childhood issue that has caused years of terror, panic, anxiety, depression, anger, attempted suicide, etc. I was a smoker of MJ from about age 15 to a few years ago when I had to move in with my parents as I started to get worse (not sure if I'm naturally getting worse or if some of the medications are doing it as they have in the past).
So I'm now in NC near Lake Norman in the city of Denver. I have no car, no friends here, and yep...no medical marijuana.
I'm pretty scared at this point. I don't think I'm going to make it before NC finally ends up legalizing medical use. All I want is to be able to have a few mature plants going at a time as I love to grow (can't grow in my parents house but I can smoke it in my room).
So I don't know what to do and I'm desperate. All I can do is try to find a safe source here within 30 miles of me, which is tough meeting new people like that for me, especially with all my social phobia due to the PTSD. I do so well for a whole day after just a few bowl hits, it's so cruel for me and others to suffer when the medicine is right there and it works.
I can't work anymore, exercise, socialize, or do the painting and other art I used to do. All of this terrible negative energy surrounds me.
What can I do guys, I really need help badly. Should I email a bunch of dispensaries in other States explaining my situation and asking for work, just minimum wage to pay for a place to live, and pay for the normal things? I can grow it myself but it would be nice to have a dispensary around to try the different strains as I have no idea what would be best for me.
Thanks for any help my new friends, I'm looking forward to being happy again. If you know anything I can do, any help, tips, advice, job offer, friend who happens to live close, etc....anything that could help me get to the next step to recovery would be awesome and I would very much appreciate it. I really don't want to die anymore.
I want what I had before it was stripped away from me, and marijuana heals all that stuff and lets my creativity, friendliness, humor, and life pour out of me.
Thanks again,
John
