Self Diagnosed

discuss your self diagnosed ailments/diseases/disorders. if you have been diagnosed by a doctor i do want want to hear about it.

i am mildly ocd (self diagnosed) and mild case of marfan syndrome (self diagnosed) followed by a mild case of s.a.d.(self diagnosed)

i have social anxiety disorder. ive always had a bit of paranoia about other people. wondering what theyre thinking of me, etc.

i used to work at the fair. one day, i got extremely nauseous for no apparent reason, and had to go home. well, the office where i had to sign out for the day was on the other side of the whole fair(mind u this fair is huge). the whole time walking, i felt like EVERY SINGLE PERSON that i walked by was staring at me, and KNEW how i was feeling. it sounds stupid i know, but that day my whole world changed. i literally became a different person inside

after that, i started having panic attacks when in public, or around others in general. eventually, i became a hermit, and NEVER left my house. the second i step out the front door, i would get an incredible nauseous feeling, and start panicking. after looking around the internet, i learned about what i had, and about cognitive behavioral therapy. i went to a therapist for a while(the rides to him were fuckin terrible and nerve racking), who taught me about the small steps of the CBT.

eventually, i could go outside with some mild anxiety. now i CAN go out with friends/family, but i still prefer not to. i dont fear going outside anymore, but it does give me anxiety still. so, i usually spend about 20 hours a day in my room lol

i have discovered that weed helps tremendously. instead of my thoughts building into a panic attack, when im high, i cant pay attention long enough for them to build on one another. basically, i become too stupid to panic

lol sorry for the rant... didnt think it would end up being this long

edit: heres a link to some info on it. the first 6 paragraphs r just examples, so u can skip those.
http://www.socialphobia.org/whatis.html

well I could probably be diagnosed with several anxiety/personality disorders without much doubt. I've had pretty much everything suggested to me (ranging from adhd, aspergers, bipolar, schizophrenia) but I never really identified with a diagnosis, I found them limiting. if I'm not taking meds for it, I don't need to know. that's just the way I look at it though.

and I'm a bit of a hermit now, but I like it that way, always have, and I don't see a problem with it. if I want to go out then I will, with or without company. but I usually dont.

as a side note, how's it going stayathomedad? haven't seen many posts from you yet, are you liking our community okay? we're all pretty nice here or I guess we try to be in our own way....

Wow, think i may have just self diagnosed myself through luger! Dude, that shit happens to me all the time, just not that bad, i can go out and socialise, but i do think everyone is llooking at me and judging me, im very self conscious, Im not too bad when im high, but when im sober, fuck me, it use to be fairly bad, but its getting better. I never thought i had something wrong, but that pretty much sums me up :\

I feel like we are pressured into socialising now, if your not out all the time with friends, drinking etc, i feel people will judge you as a loser, or a 'hermit'. But i prefer to just chill at home than go out partying, I dont feel like spending a ridiculuous amount of money on liquids, so i can throw up later that night, possibly get the shit beaten out off me later that night, somehow find a way to get home, and then feel like shit the next morning. Seems to be the new cool thing to do?

Bilstaaa said:

Wow, think i may have just self diagnosed myself through luger! Dude, that shit happens to me all the time, just not that bad, i can go out and socialise, but i do think everyone is llooking at me and judging me, im very self conscious, Im not too bad when im high, but when im sober, fuck me, it use to be fairly bad, but its getting better. I never thought i had something wrong, but that pretty much sums me up :\

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lol glad i could help. please read the link i posted. when i read it i was in shock because it explained me perfectly. before the fair incident(thats what i call it haha), i thought everyone was like that. i figured everyone was paranoid like i was. but it turns out i was just paranoid =[

Dude, like, i would give you a hug if i could (no homo) lol, literally, im happy iv found the answer, the bit about the head and shoulder movement, i use to do it loads, i havnt done it in a while though. I read about 90% of it! And yeh, it pretty much explained me, its all in the mind, im glad im not like i use to be, I think iv actually self cured myself. Not fully, but i can go out and socialise, but the thought is always there, no matter how hard i try But yeh, thanks again dude, and thanks for the original poster, hope you have a good time on the forum, toke n talk is full of helpful people, and some very intresting characters !

Bilstaaa said:

Dude, like, i would give you a hug if i could (no homo) lol, literally, im happy iv found the answer, the bit about the head and shoulder movement, i use to do it loads, i havnt done it in a while though. I read about 90% of it! And yeh, it pretty much explained me, its all in the mind, im glad im not like i use to be, I think iv actually self cured myself. Not fully, but i can go out and socialise, but the thought is always there, no matter how hard i try But yeh, thanks again dude, and thanks for the original poster, hope you have a good time on the forum, toke n talk is full of helpful people, and some very intresting characters !

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yeah man i feel the same. the fear is gone, but i still despise society and just dont like people in general haha

haha, i feel ya, still MJ is the answer! Peace x

Bilstaaa said:

toke n talk is full of helpful people, and some very intresting characters !

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yeah we have fun here

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Gafoogle said:

yeah we have fun here

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haha indeed! Just wish i could meet all these people in real life, who's up for cannabis cup this year?