so i took him. and first thanks everyone. there are the most kind people on here. so i pull into the vets and i was ok that point. my vet waited till the end of the day so id be alone and have privacy. so i walk in and i see the dr. i go to talk and nothing comes out. here come the tears and i couldnt breath. he says dont worry man go to your car and ill come get you when its ready to go. so i go back and hug my dog and cry like a god damd baby, thinking oh no what if im doing the wrong thing.
the vet comes and gets me. we go into the room he has a banket on the table he says im gonna give him a sedative first, then the lethal injection. he gives ricky the sedative and a minute later my dog comes over to me and just flops on my lap. im now crying uncontrolably because hes dead weight and gurgling. i was crying so hard i couldnt move him. so the doc comes and lifts him up to the table, i take a knee and look him right in the eye and say i love you ricky, more than life itself, i cry and cry and cry and then his eyes widen and the dog becomes an empty shell. i loved that dog sooo much. that dog had been places with me all over this world. i love him and i will cherish the friendship and bond i had with him forever. i feel like one of my kids died, it hurts bad