THELOADEDDRAGON'S 2010 Outdoor

theloadeddragon

theloadeddragon

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seems there is always a hell of a lot going on in the grow that never makes it into these journals.... some of it gets into my personal journals on notepads..... but most of it not...... Wish all I did was grow herb, then these journals would be a hell of a lot more informative.... gunna write tonight.... might post some.... Lavenderstars just gave me a huge boost saying she supports me to slow down with work some and just focus on writing and other more personally stimulating business projects..... Like the magazine! Lots of things are in the works.... might be the owner of a few businesses here by the end of the year, :).....
 
theloadeddragon

theloadeddragon

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I put it on, and let it go, and then it begins. I feel it first, then I explore those feelings, and am left reeling by the thoughts that come with the rhythms, when Im in sinc with them, and I can hear the words. The words flow through me with the rhythm, and the moments lost to the music, to the reality in it, the other world I can tap into, I am part of it, and it lives through me. The words come out, in my sweat, and my eyes tear up, maybe I sing along, unable to control the force of magic it invokes around me. Because I feel these words, and as they course through me, I understand them, and in a million momentary flashes in a moment of this minute of thought and feeling and rhythm, I understand what these words mean, why its with this rhythm, what they mean to me. What they mean to me has everything to do with everything else in my life, everything that isn't me, but has at least in part made me. Visions of people and memories float by, visual representations of ideas, of ideas out of my grasp, of things that I only understand in feeling, ideas your living.
What stands out beyond all else, is all the other people, the you the me and your buddy, the small points of contact, and those that I entangle with on the daily. The things we share, the things we fear, and wondering if we feel the same things the same way.... and if we do, WOW. That hunger feels the same to you, as it does to me, and that we hunger maybe for the same things. Lifes complexities suck away everything we eat, every moment we breathe, and all that is left is the hunger. So we burn, and we burn, and we burn. We burn our visions, and we burn our dreams, we burn our humanity. We battle each other, super heroes in our own eyes, and each others. Because we feel there is something more than what we understand to be, because there is more, because maybe we can Be more. So much more that we don't tap into, because we keep beating each other down. And we hold each other down to hold ourselves up, and if we can hold ourselves up long enough, we might be able to hold it, that something more....... after a while of thinking about holding it though..... what are we holding..... our brothers and our sisters..... we are holding them down, and now that I think about it, they are holding me down too, because under the water where they seem to be drowning they are in their own world, and I am under their water, and they are holding me down, and I am drowning, and you see me. I am drowning to be in their world, in your world, hungry for you, I want your mind, and your heart, to feel them and know them and live with them as part of each other, all. I want your soul with mine, and hers. I want us to pull each other out, and listen to the music, and breathe. I want us to walk together, and build a better world out of our ideas.... out of our feelings, out of the rhythms we make, because we seek the same thing....
There is no way to express these feelings, you can't see my face, you can't hear my voice. But this music, you can hear this music. And in music we can feel each other, we can know each other, and we can walk together, we can know that we make the words what they are, and what they mean. There I am, in all of these songs I post, in every word I post, and so you know me. Perhaps better than some close to me. So I know you, and I love you, because we are the same, we are all part of the same songs, and we walk in the rhythms together..... just waiting to get in sinc, to feel, perceive, understand, and act. Because until then, we are just Burning, we are just yearning, for that something more. The gift of giving, is not receiving and leaving ;). The gift of giving, is feeling and relieving.
 
svchop889

svchop889

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holding each other up, and being held up by one another.
Giving all you have away to gain something within yourself.
Looking at the spirit in someone instead of looking at the body it lies in.
People don't own there possessions, there possessions own them.
So many people will never be free, will never let go of the physical to reach for there own spirit. So many people are lost, we are loosing each other and ourselves looking for something that was always there hidden beneath it all, beneath the facade's and the greed and lies.
we are all guilty, but we are all innocent. We are all a product of our environment, We are all mirrors of our brothers and sisters.

Your words, your actions they have an effect. Your generosity, your honesty they are reflected and will be reflected by others.

Thank you for sharing so much of yourself.
And I'm sorry that these simple words are all I can give you in return,
but there is a lot of thought behind them.
 
theloadeddragon

theloadeddragon

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interesting day today.... cool compared to how its been lately, mid 90's.... just a couple more weeks of veg left for the majority of the strains..... Ima push them a little bit just before the transition to flower.

Pics 1-4-Garden Shots, Looking SW, the just W.
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Pics 5+6- Sensi Star
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Pic 7- Maui Skunk Original
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Pic 8- Maui Skunk x Blueberry
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Pic 9- Sensi Star is centered.
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Pic 10- Maui Skunk Original
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Pic 11- Maui Skunk x Blueberry
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Pic 12- Jack Herer
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Pic 13- Grapefruit Diesel
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Pic 14- Hungry NGGH
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Pic 15- Revegged and confused NGGH
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Pic 16- Some of this, some of that, a corner of the mini/lower garden.
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Pic 17- NGGH, Favorite Pheno- over 6 ft now.
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Pic 18- Chemo Cindy x Hi Jack, CC pheno
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Pic 19- NGGH, rape pheno
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Pic 20- Widow Cindy.
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highflyby

highflyby

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Those plants look GREAT!Good to see everything is going well TLD, sorry I havent been around much brother. Going through rough times, getting fucked over constantly by people.....just loosing faith in people all together. I just hope everything ends awesome for you this year man, that bud is going to be worth your labors.

Keep up the hard work brother, your an inspiration that there are better things ahead of where im currently at. +rep

HfB

Edit: or not...."You must spread some Reputation around before giving it to theloadeddragon again." Sorry mang...:D
 
theloadeddragon

theloadeddragon

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I hear yah on that one SVCHOP.

And HFB- Your getting there bro. Your going through it. You will come out on the other side, and breathe again. I will pull you out, and up, and we may hold that much more together. But only together, can we hold it, for it exists only in those rare and true connections. It will be real. Feel my love, as it is going out, and embrace it and give it all away, and we shall refill you. I see you are hungry as I, and together we shall break bread. Until then, patients will be your payment, both coming and going. New barriers of tolerance, understanding, accepting, and passion will expand around you, and when we meet, there will be no better man. We will break bread together and feed on each others love. Smoke on our Labours of Love, and see the world for what it is.

Pic 1- Jacks Surprise x Hi Jack.
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Pic 2- CCxHJ (HJ pheno)
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Pic 3- Ugly Indian Landrace (UIL)
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Pic 4- North East PK
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Pic 5- Garden center Isle, East Side.
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Pic 6- Garden Center Isle, West Side.
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Pic 7- PK Wide, SE Side.
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Pics 8+9 PK Tall, SE Side
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Pic 10- 2 Legged PK
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Pic 11- South West PK
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Pic 12- NGGH (L), CCxHJ (R)
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Pic 13- Maui Skunk x Blueberry
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Pic 14- Original Maui Skunk
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Pic 15- Sensi Star
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Pic 16- South West PK
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Pic 17- 2 Legged PK
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Pic 18- PK Tall
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Pic 19- PK Wide
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theloadeddragon

theloadeddragon

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Thanks.... spent two hours trying to upload a video on youtube.... but it "failed" right at the end....???.... I have a shorter one though.... real quick, I will try and upload that one first, lol.....
 
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