Quitting Smoking With Mental Illness

2fast92

2fast92

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Ok, so I have to stop smoking weed. doing any drugs for a while simply because I cannot afford them. I am literally scared to stop smoking as I am unsure the effect it will have on me. I have Bipolar I, Borderline Personality Disorder, and ADHD. I take no medication for any of the disorders because I have no medical insurance and can't afford the doctor or meds. I smoke weed to slow my brain down enough to where I can actually think, make decisions, concentrate on things, or even do simple things like cook or do laundry. Otherwise, I would start, get bored after 15 seconds, and quit.

The chronic feelings of boredom and emptiness hinder me the most. It's bad enough to where I have to be doing 5 things at once to be entertained at all if I'm sober or at least 2 if I'm high. I have to be listening to music, watching a movie, reading online, and playing video games to be entertained or my mind moves at light speed and it's pure misery. It also adds insomnia which is a killer when trying to stop smoking.

Does anyone have any experience in a situation like this or have any input for me? Anything would be awesome. Again, I would go to the doctor and get the right medication and such but I have no medical insurance, can't motivate myself to go, and I have no extra cash that isn't for rent and bills.


Edit: I also have Panic Disorder.
Thanks.
 
stonestare

stonestare

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Let me ask you a question you maybe in the same boat I am in and you do not have the right diagnoses. I have schizo effective disorder I have everything you stated, no I do not have the out ward personalities but in my brain I have my voice of thought plus 7 others and my thoughts constantly race through my mind, its nonstop and very agravating.That is why it is called schizo effective disorder in a nut shell, I know about meds, I am dealing with other issues in my health but I take Zyprexa for my schizo effective disorder. I cannot afford Zyprexa it is some very very expensive med but the way I was able to get it was I had to find low income pshyc services offered by my state. I had to fill out paper work and was charged based on my income.I took my last years fed w-2 in with me on my first visit and was accepted into a grant. My visit cost me $25.00 a visit. I go in 1 time a month. I recieved my mental meds for free no cost to me.The only downside was when I was working I had to take off for the office visit since they were not open on the weekends. Taking Zyprexa shut my mind down, no ongoing racing thoughts in my head. I found that I can sleep better and I do not feel worn out constantly. The only downside to Zyprexa is you will gain 20 or 30 pounds taking it.I know its fucking difficult dealing with this, people do not know how to deal with you because of it. I am not trying to PUSh a diagnoses onto you, I went 20 years taking bi polar meds and they just did not help.I finally got onto Zyprexa and in 4 months my life has taking a major change for the better. Look into services provided by your state for low income and I know its tough to admit that you are in that boat but your health is far more important that your pride.
 
2fast92

2fast92

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I only have one voice in my head and it's mine. For example, I will be waiting to cross the road and my own voice in my head will say something like, "You're a fucking bitch if you don't jump out into the traffic." I obviously don't do it but it's very annoying.
 
bunnyface

bunnyface

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Hey just reading your posts and i think stonestare may have touched on something. Just so you know i was diagnosed with an anxiety disorder, which manifests itself through depressive moods, complete swings of mood, form tears of joy to tears of sorrow all instantly,,And it properly get me mad as ive gone from happy to sad ,,, that Along with insomnia, once went 5 days without sleep. Looked like a corps,, loss of appetite which ment i had no energy,,sorry im ranting bout myself now,,so back to you, this is why im posting, the thought you gave as an example would seem to me more like depression,maybe even a subconscious thought that works it way through to a state of self hatred. Im sorry if im off the mark on that but just what I took from the posts.

On another note are you meaning giving up smoking weed or smoking ciggys? Just that for me i had to try to sort my life out( in no way am i saying you need to sort your life out) before i could give up the ciggys. Or at least try and stop smoking them. Especially as life is like a constantly filling barrel of shit. Your never going to be able to stop the inpouring of shit, but by being on-top of the shit, you can deal with the new shit thats entering the barrel and better deal with it. Sorry for a shitty analogue, and im sorry to hear about your state and always try to talk,a problem shared is a problem halfed. Thats no help but im going to stop ranting now,, take it easy
 
2fast92

2fast92

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Haha that was the best analogy I've ever heard . I was talking about smoking weed. Since I can't afford prescriptions and to go to the doctor like I'm supposed to, I use weed to keep my Bipolar, panic disorder, and BPD at bay. I do smoke cigarettes too though.
 
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puffdatchronic

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best advice i can give is stop wasting money on cigs and keep smoking weed if it helps your mind relax.Can you not grow it? You can simply not get bored of growing weed and it is very relaxing and calming being in the precence of a cannabis plant... other than that maybe try working out to keep the boredom away
 
Bublonichronic

Bublonichronic

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stonestare said:
Let me ask you a question you maybe in the same boat I am in and you do not have the right diagnoses. I have schizo effective disorder I have everything you stated, no I do not have the out ward personalities but in my brain I have my voice of thought plus 7 others and my thoughts constantly race through my mind, its nonstop and very agravating.That is why it is called schizo effective disorder in a nut shell, I know about meds, I am dealing with other issues in my health but I take Zyprexa for my schizo effective disorder. I cannot afford Zyprexa it is some very very expensive med but the way I was able to get it was I had to find low income pshyc services offered by my state. I had to fill out paper work and was charged based on my income.I took my last years fed w-2 in with me on my first visit and was accepted into a grant. My visit cost me $25.00 a visit. I go in 1 time a month. I recieved my mental meds for free no cost to me.The only downside was when I was working I had to take off for the office visit since they were not open on the weekends. Taking Zyprexa shut my mind down, no ongoing racing thoughts in my head. I found that I can sleep better and I do not feel worn out constantly. The only downside to Zyprexa is you will gain 20 or 30 pounds taking it.I know its fucking difficult dealing with this, people do not know how to deal with you because of it. I am not trying to PUSh a diagnoses onto you, I went 20 years taking bi polar meds and they just did not help.I finally got onto Zyprexa and in 4 months my life has taking a major change for the better. Look into services provided by your state for low income and I know its tough to admit that you are in that boat but your health is far more important that your pride.
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jesus, I always wondered what it would be like to be a skitzo,do you hear like 7 different voices in ur head or ur mind races so much it's equal to 7 people's worth thoughts ...there was a period of time when I thought I was skit cause of the "voice in m head" then it turned out that was just thinking...
 
trippinoff8ball

trippinoff8ball

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you dont want those nasty pharmaceuticals them docs give you, weed is the only medicine man needs! try to save up and buy a grow kit off ebay and grow your own medicine!
 
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