I stopped smoking, feel my own mind has changed

So I recently stopped smoking just to take a break.I have smoked heavily for over a year daily and now that I have stopped I feel my own mind set has changed. I smoked all the time everything revolved around it if I was out running errands I would stop by.the house and smoke then go back out from the time I would wake up till asleep.I would smoke. Now that I have stopped I see what it did to me. I can say I still love marijuana and will smoke(helps with stomach) but I look at myself in a sickening way I disgusted myself with how much I would put weed before everything. I would spend my last 50$ own marijuana rather than making sure I have food in my house. I can see what I have put my gf through for almost a year and a half now. I would use it as an excuse for my mood it changed me. If I didnt smoke I would be told that.I am a dick by multiple people even.if I tried not to.smoke my gf would.tell me to.go.smoke im being mean. It would fuck my emotions so.bad that really I didnt have any. I started my break on the first and had a puff on sunday night(was at a dinner with the chemo patient I supply and he puffs after dinner) and still I took a hit even though I have told myself not to. It didnt do.anything to me the one hit but im done for the remainder of the month. Just in the past few days I have noticed a wirlwind of emotions. I just recently had a friend slip.and they knew the rules and im done with.them.now have to cut the ties with them for my own.well being and protection.one if my friends she has been a good one.she helped me all through the last two.years of high school.becuase of her I met my gf.of almost two.years now and I can say just because of no weed emotions are bad as I type this I get sadder and sadder. I hate that just because I want to help.people by supplying medicine I get judged as a drug dealer and that im pretty much scum. I cant even share with half my.family that I even smoke for.the fear of being judged and my own.family not accepting me. Im going to apologize to everyone on here for when I may act like a dick or be rude to.others...stopping smoking is no.excuse but it is an emotional toll on me and I dont care what people say.marijuana is addicting and it is a drug... I can admit from.experiance now......just wanted to type how I feel sorry if this wasted any of your guys/gals time

Dude I seriously hope you never get on anything physically addictive lol.

I understand though if its not for you it's not for you. Hope the best for u in your journies!

only thing i noticed when i quit smoking a while back is i had energy and couldnt fall asleep easy.i smoked weed for 12 years strait then quit for 2 years cause of a job .but im smoking again and missed it so much.good luck with not smoking ,its always good to take break .man that 1st time i smoked after i quit for 2 years .i felt like a rookie smoker i couldnt even think strait all highed up lol

DUDE.................u are hitting a downward sprial from withdrawl and the lack of endorphines amoung other chemicals

your body has adapted to certin things beeing in the system and u just took them all way of course your hitting the emtional wall at 100 miles a hour but the point is u got to ride the thing out

anything is addicting .................have u seen ppl with out the coffee ...............hell i addicted to ice tea i been drinking it since i was a child i drink about a gallon of it a day everyday for the last 30 years

smoke it is just a fricken dried flower ...........nothing more then that how u use it is up to u ...............i have drunks on both sides of my family (infact the whole transplant rotine was set up by my father for my uncle being the first man in this area to have a new liver and one of the longest living liver transplantie with the same liver ) and i make my own shine.........150% can be used as fuel shine .............i can out drink most ppl but i only drink when i got a reason .....speical party b-day new years thanks given etc


right your system has to reset and find it's new balance ............yes your going to be a dick /angery a shit load more .............2 to 4 months then u will be lvl and that is when u make your life altering choices ........................right now it like u are a teen again the whole brain chemical system is all wackie

I find myself taking off a month or 2 every year without blazing. As I sometimes have to remind myself every now and then.. never go FULL POTHEAD. Sorry to hear your feelin down danoo, as I know ive read many of your posts. Life has a way of balancing itself out, stay positive and all will be well.

When getting high becomes a priority it's time to take a brk. Be proud ur able to see this in urself, not many can....Wishing u the best, give urself a week...after that ur gold

See but I have a strong mind set I.quit.cigs and I dont need to.smoke weed but I feel.like it mentally took a toll. I know about how it fucks cannabinoid receptors. Its partially the.fact that it started getting to.the point where It toke to.much weed to actually feel anything

And its bad to substitute but nicotine does help quite a bit right now to.calm me down. Might need to go get another e cig :/

and on a side note ............smoke is a much more effective and safer thing then alot of the pills and meds the doctors are pushing (13 years every week blood test to keep eye on kideny and liver functions since they were feeding me near lethal doses of lithum and depakote with riddlen).........side effect of all this was lose of hair by age 28 i am freaking crome dome do to depakote

i can function for 3 days on my natural built up amounts in system after that i am declining untill the point something pisses me off i react and someone gets hurt and i do jail time again ..................i smoke 1 gram a day have for 11 years ...............just keep changing the strains every 2 to 4 weeks and no need to smoke all the time .............do your days crap come home eat dinner smoke a bong watch some kung fu ........or go out ...................if something pisses u off or something really good happens have a joint hidden somewhere and pop it out relax enjoy let it go and deal with the trouble

Please get a nicotine free e-cig.. replacing one habit with another does not require very much will power...

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Please get a nicotine free e-cig.. replacing one habit with another does not require very much will power...

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I dont drink whats so ever and im a social smoker which is still bad and I only use 7mg nicotine e liquid I havent had one for a while...I am a strong willed person it like the weed thing now I roll over in the morning and see my bong I dont think.man I need to smoke I look at it and think that fucker is dirty I need to.clean it...I havent had one urge to smoke really at all...I just took a 1mg xanax to help.calm me a lil...tears randomly.hit the eyes and im just sitting in bed I called into.work today its really the first day where withdrawals are starting to.kick in

I think if you need to constantly be on something, that's a sign of bigger issues. It's weed withdrawal so yeah you may feel depressed, anxious, have mood swings, irritated, etc... eat healthy foods, exercise, go outside and enjoy nature and get some fresh air, listen to music. Do things that will improve your health and keep your mind occupied.

Feel free to speak, type your feelings and your experiences.

thats why we are on the board, to learn and to be of help to each other.

You are a smart individual it shows by your choice to be in control of your use.

wait a while and instead of smoking try an edible.

might be a perfect occasional Buzz for U!

peace,
DZ

ok .............dude something is not right if u got tears and withdrawls to need pills for weed............even when i was in jail with all those ppl i would never of been near on the outside it was 2 months of them before i cracked and told them to drug my ass up or someone was going to get hurt and that was after 7 years of running a party house

not being a ass or tring to make fun of yah but u might need to talk to someone and get head cracked open and checked for scrambled wires ( could the reason your habbit increased was do to something that happend in life and u used it as a way to bypass dealing with it this is a guy thing )

I have cookies in the freezer but my tilerance go so.out of control.in my.opinion.that they dont do.anything takes 2/3 cookies...I got to.the.point where iil.was my choice of medication and even dispensary quality bho I could take 5dabs easily in the morning beforw work and big dabs I.can say a gram of oil lasts like 3 days usually maybe 4 but thats with smoking weed here and there too

it sounds like you have bigger issues then just the weed, xanax, nicotine.

the real question you should ask yourself is why you feel the need to do any of these at all.
are you trying to escape something instead of facing your fears?
thats why most people drink, smoke, pop pills, dabs, etc etc.. some do it for genuine pain i will admit. some do it on occasions for pleasure. why do you do it?

I got really bad stomach issues. Ibs and smoking helps my stomach

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I have cookies in the freezer but my tilerance go so.out of control.in my.opinion.that they dont do.anything takes 2/3 cookies...I got to.the.point where iil.was my choice of medication and even dispensary quality bho I could take 5dabs easily in the morning beforw work and big dabs I.can say a gram of oil lasts like 3 days usually maybe 4 but thats with smoking weed here and there too

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Yeah, you're doing the right thing by dropping the weed for a while. I would smoke all the time too but I know from experience to just use it at the end of the day. Some weekends "go for it" but realize that if you're high all the time what do you have to look forward to? At my age I'm just happy I don't have pain that requires an all day buzz. Hell, I'd take a Tylenol before weed if it wasn't the right time of day. Now if I can just take my own advise and quit for a week or two I'd be doing great too! I did quit oil, it ruined the flower smoking too much.

Good job at self control. You've got more will power than most. Build on that.

To the OP - I think it stems a bit from misplaced priorities. Once you put things back in their proper order, your weed time should equate to a more enjoyable experience. I do not like to drink or smoke if there is a pressing issue that needs dealt with. Now chores around the house, they always get done stoned, and they get done. Work and business, get done first, then time to play. I have been smoking since I was 12 and daily for the last 25 years or so.
Just step back and get your ducks in a row and you will more than likely see it all come together like it should be.

Peace

Asmallvoice

Keep headstrong bro and anything is possible. If you don't like who you've become YOU CAN CHANGE! Put your mind into it, create a plan and execute it. I've tore my life to shreds in the past, once I had realized what I became I made some serious guidelines for myself that I have still stuck to.

A good question asked above why do you do it? Think about that and be true to yourself about the answer.