ONEeyedWILLY444
Well-Known Member
is that a flux capacitorI'm going through a moral crisis and more... I was with my girlfriend of 2 years up until june of this year when i found and confronted her about emails she had been exchanging with another guy. in the emails they were making plans to go to concerts and out for a drink... anyway... i ended up keeping tabs on her emails until enough was enough and i confronted her about it one night. things went bad and needless to say, the relationship ended and she moved out... days later when i spoke to her she seemed happy and like should could give a shit about what happend. but maybe i was reading too much into it. weeks went by and she said she wanted to be just friends and went on to talk about dating and crap. i told her i couldnt do that with her and couldnt be just friends cause that was some hard shit to have to hear... we hang out a time or two more and then we end up arguing about the breakup and she says she broke up with me cause she isn't sexually attracted to me... so thats some fucked up shit to hear. we dont talk for months then i hear from her out of the blue... calls me crying telling me how much she misses me and wants to be with me. dispite my best instincts... i go to her and comfort her... she tells me she is on meds for anxiety and so much has happend and she misses me. we start hanging out again... she says she wants to earn her way back into my life... i begin to let her... more weeks go by... i'm at her house looking up guitar tabs and i see a dating website on her history... i go on to find out she has a profile... and a screen name... and at this point she is acting kinda distant with me all the sudden... so i go into self protection mode and decide to act on my instinct. i sign up for an account and pose as another dude... with a fake pic... i act like the biggest tool on the planet and she ate it up... ended up sending me nude pics... saying "oh i'm friends with this guy and he wants way more than i do" and blah blah blah... basically telling this "dude" i made up that she wanted to bone... i talk to her like this for a few days... finding out all kinds of crap about how she really felt about me. i ended up telling her today that it was me all along. i feel like such a piece of shit for doing that to her... but i just had to know... i dont feel any better for having done that to her but i also feel like i saved myself pain in the long run. she told me she never wants to see me again now. and that the was the lowest that i could have done. that it was entrapment... and all that...
so... how big of a piece of shit am i?...
