Bosejammin
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I have no money so I saved you the trouble if you guys can't help me I understand. It's just this public defender is 0 in giving a shit this is my life we are dealing with.
I live in NYS, in Westchester county. I have a very bad drinking problem and it ended up landing me in jail for a year due to probation violations and arrests for fighting. I have a 5 year old felony dwi and i think 3 misdemeanor assaults. I think that's it. it was my 4th DWI and violations thereof that landed me in jail.
OK fast forward to now. The last time I touched a drink was the day I was last arrested, some 19 or so months ago. Listen, I deserved what I got- ok, but I am a different person now. I am. I help neighbors as silent acts of contritions, I got a dog from pound, and I am always on my BEST BEHAVIOR. I mean that it's important you believe me I take my good behavior as an absolute strict rule. Things I've lost, it's retarded. My business my credit my home at the time, and thats just financial. My family. I'm not looking for any repeats. So I smoke weed. At one point or another I've been on every anti depressant, psychotic everything... Even lithium at one point. Nothing filled that feeling . Only weed. In fact ALL my arrests were blind blackout drunks everyone of them. Never arrested ever besides. Couldn't smoke weed on probation, the majority of arrests happened in the next three years.
So here I sit I've lost securities licenses and income. A four million dollar insurance agency. Respect of everyone....who but a fool would keep doing that stuff to themselves. This is serious stuff to me. I'm diagnosed ADHD and nothing heIped that, "Thing" that made me depressed and or that alcohol medicated. So now off probation, I made a vailed attempt at not smoking. That landed me back at bars...lol..then I'm doing coke, even get ready heroin. I realize my folly come clean, yet again, to my family, and take suboxone in order to stay away from heroin, alcohol other casual results leading to a better, more responsible day to day life. So this is what happened:
My upstairs neighbor in a house we rent let police in my basement. I had 5 pot plants no bigger than 2 inches. Not even sexed yet.. growing this was my attempt to further keep any illegal activity and/or access to other drugs, I can literally from seed to smoke be in the privacy of my own home, and break the, "Dealer", risk. Risk of arrest AND susceptibility to other things due to regular access for marihuana purchases. All this benefits by growing a personal supply. And lets face it, NO ONE thinks the risk is an upstairs tenant goes into your premises! She told the police she stored things there.n there. That and more. ALL LIES. The real estate lady likes me not her. She represents the owner. She damn well knows its bullshit and would go to court on it that she indicated strongly the basement was not hers for any use as recently as on her porch all three of us talking two three months ago. Again and other occasions by the real estate woman who would testify. Hand to God. Its where my laundry stuff is!! I come home from Baltimore and next morning check on my babies and ALL MY SHITS GONE. Cleared out. its like 9 30 am I'm yelling, bugging out, all equipment came to like $1500.00. I'm thinking a million things. Not upstairs. I even knock on her door when I'm frantic, you know...to no answer. Next thing cops are downstairs already in my house from basement door I had opened seconds earlier all upset. I'm like wtf? I'm so pissed I start saying electrical stuff and gardening tools stolen, you know and I know I'm not filing a report. I'm guessing someone called cause I was yelling you know. It was such a small amount, I was gonna show them a recent pic and say this!!! J/King but...I was furious. Look jail messes you up. Nothing is more important than your freedom and your privacy. Its when the detective shows up I know what's up. So I'm backing off... they say he wants to talk, I said, "About what", they said he'll tell you they say you better so I dont want to give an attitude so ok, bottom line detective plays mute and empathetic tro my loss, I felt it coming......your under arrest. backed right into it. wtf. There are more details.
Charged with PL 221.05 and PHL 3382. She has a restraining order as well. No monety to move. One word of lies I'm DONE. I hide. Instead she should have a robbery charge and me a portection order and harrassment suit.
Now listen, I take this very seriously. In my opinion if I drink again, I'll literally land back in jail. I'm sure other's would agree. So drinking for me isn't crying at an aa meeting. Its 6 to 10. ok. So who's gonna say they wouldnt smoke so far guaranteeing abstinence, as it did before to the tune of 8 years no liquor. Also, imo a much better quality of life for me. Frankly for the first timein a long time I feel properly titrated. More, I will lose my insurance licenses as well if I'm convicted. Also, I was working on a certificate of disabilities after some time passed. And lastly but most important, I take offense to being in the back of a police car and kept in jail like 6 hours no call no rights read. Back in the box. It's set me back. I'm scared, angry, upset...and best yet the lady upstairs..the same lady who temporarily has an order of protection against me. the same lady who- got in from outside door, walked IN DARK to very discreet basement area to unzip and then probably come back when timer went on. dude she worked to see these things ---------------------------- that big my word. She knew my story. I could tell you why she'd want to do that another time. FUCK THEM. If you feel me I'd appreciate any help. Draconian. Seriously this is the case. This is my life some old lady holds in the balance after a illegal search and subsequent seizure. I need it thrown the fuck out. Not to mention my bad mental state, and I had some serious closeys with reality back in a cell a box.
I live in NYS, in Westchester county. I have a very bad drinking problem and it ended up landing me in jail for a year due to probation violations and arrests for fighting. I have a 5 year old felony dwi and i think 3 misdemeanor assaults. I think that's it. it was my 4th DWI and violations thereof that landed me in jail.
OK fast forward to now. The last time I touched a drink was the day I was last arrested, some 19 or so months ago. Listen, I deserved what I got- ok, but I am a different person now. I am. I help neighbors as silent acts of contritions, I got a dog from pound, and I am always on my BEST BEHAVIOR. I mean that it's important you believe me I take my good behavior as an absolute strict rule. Things I've lost, it's retarded. My business my credit my home at the time, and thats just financial. My family. I'm not looking for any repeats. So I smoke weed. At one point or another I've been on every anti depressant, psychotic everything... Even lithium at one point. Nothing filled that feeling . Only weed. In fact ALL my arrests were blind blackout drunks everyone of them. Never arrested ever besides. Couldn't smoke weed on probation, the majority of arrests happened in the next three years.
So here I sit I've lost securities licenses and income. A four million dollar insurance agency. Respect of everyone....who but a fool would keep doing that stuff to themselves. This is serious stuff to me. I'm diagnosed ADHD and nothing heIped that, "Thing" that made me depressed and or that alcohol medicated. So now off probation, I made a vailed attempt at not smoking. That landed me back at bars...lol..then I'm doing coke, even get ready heroin. I realize my folly come clean, yet again, to my family, and take suboxone in order to stay away from heroin, alcohol other casual results leading to a better, more responsible day to day life. So this is what happened:
My upstairs neighbor in a house we rent let police in my basement. I had 5 pot plants no bigger than 2 inches. Not even sexed yet.. growing this was my attempt to further keep any illegal activity and/or access to other drugs, I can literally from seed to smoke be in the privacy of my own home, and break the, "Dealer", risk. Risk of arrest AND susceptibility to other things due to regular access for marihuana purchases. All this benefits by growing a personal supply. And lets face it, NO ONE thinks the risk is an upstairs tenant goes into your premises! She told the police she stored things there.n there. That and more. ALL LIES. The real estate lady likes me not her. She represents the owner. She damn well knows its bullshit and would go to court on it that she indicated strongly the basement was not hers for any use as recently as on her porch all three of us talking two three months ago. Again and other occasions by the real estate woman who would testify. Hand to God. Its where my laundry stuff is!! I come home from Baltimore and next morning check on my babies and ALL MY SHITS GONE. Cleared out. its like 9 30 am I'm yelling, bugging out, all equipment came to like $1500.00. I'm thinking a million things. Not upstairs. I even knock on her door when I'm frantic, you know...to no answer. Next thing cops are downstairs already in my house from basement door I had opened seconds earlier all upset. I'm like wtf? I'm so pissed I start saying electrical stuff and gardening tools stolen, you know and I know I'm not filing a report. I'm guessing someone called cause I was yelling you know. It was such a small amount, I was gonna show them a recent pic and say this!!! J/King but...I was furious. Look jail messes you up. Nothing is more important than your freedom and your privacy. Its when the detective shows up I know what's up. So I'm backing off... they say he wants to talk, I said, "About what", they said he'll tell you they say you better so I dont want to give an attitude so ok, bottom line detective plays mute and empathetic tro my loss, I felt it coming......your under arrest. backed right into it. wtf. There are more details.
Charged with PL 221.05 and PHL 3382. She has a restraining order as well. No monety to move. One word of lies I'm DONE. I hide. Instead she should have a robbery charge and me a portection order and harrassment suit.
Now listen, I take this very seriously. In my opinion if I drink again, I'll literally land back in jail. I'm sure other's would agree. So drinking for me isn't crying at an aa meeting. Its 6 to 10. ok. So who's gonna say they wouldnt smoke so far guaranteeing abstinence, as it did before to the tune of 8 years no liquor. Also, imo a much better quality of life for me. Frankly for the first timein a long time I feel properly titrated. More, I will lose my insurance licenses as well if I'm convicted. Also, I was working on a certificate of disabilities after some time passed. And lastly but most important, I take offense to being in the back of a police car and kept in jail like 6 hours no call no rights read. Back in the box. It's set me back. I'm scared, angry, upset...and best yet the lady upstairs..the same lady who temporarily has an order of protection against me. the same lady who- got in from outside door, walked IN DARK to very discreet basement area to unzip and then probably come back when timer went on. dude she worked to see these things ---------------------------- that big my word. She knew my story. I could tell you why she'd want to do that another time. FUCK THEM. If you feel me I'd appreciate any help. Draconian. Seriously this is the case. This is my life some old lady holds in the balance after a illegal search and subsequent seizure. I need it thrown the fuck out. Not to mention my bad mental state, and I had some serious closeys with reality back in a cell a box.
after reading that i could use a drink
