Yeah, the VA sucks in a lot of ways. They've tried shoving so many pills down my throat but I'll stick to my herbal remedies and keep my liver. I had to wait over a year to hear anything and had to appeal to receive what little they give me. I still have an appeal out there that I sent last year. I should be 100% disabled but of course they don't wanna give us anything. I know persons that are better off than me and get everything handed to them. Just keep up the fight and keep appealing if they deny your claim. Afterall, you deserve it for what you've given up. My Veteran friends and I all feel numb like you too. Their's a huge void without the Army. Luckily, I have a one year old son now that keeps me a lil more positive and the weed always helps with the rest (pain,PTSD,stomach problems,etc). I hope you find something that helps you too. Regardless, you should be proud of what you've accomplished and know that you are an honorable man. Take care brother.