rory420420
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And here is that feeling of dispair again at 5am...ugg!..sucks knowing I can't help myself through this..I guess at least its better than not realizing somethings wrong...
the tranqs
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rory420420
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Sorry to thread-jack if I've done this...
canndo
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Nitrazapam/Bromazapam mix: one of each. A bright beginning but too sedating and the nitrazapam still makes me unsteady, it is hard to keep my eyes open, I just want to go lay down somewhere and get the best sleep of my life. In my experience, when this occurs early on, there is no helping it but either to sleep or fight, and when the fight is over and you won, you still have nothing you didn't have before. I wonder if it was a lack of sleep last night, maybe. Got to get up and walk around or this will change from a very short day to a very long one.
rory420420
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I didn't get to sleep till 8am yesterday..had to get my mother in law to watch the kids so I could sleep when it finally happened..and I wore up feeling tired tike you...go for a jog!lol
canndo
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Well, I am winding this thread up, I didn't take anything Friday because I hadn't gotten enough sleep and I knew that anything I took would simply make me more tired. I have run out of new substances and any further exploration will be just mixtures, it seems from the mixes I have taken so far that they tend to blend into the same sort of benzo experience, and don't seem to have individual personalities any more.
I have come away with a new favorite, midazolam, it is short acting and when taken at twice the largest theraputic dose has a profound effect, but it seems to really screw up my short term and long term memory - possibly for days. . Finaly, lorazapam is in the favored category as well, although I have learned that this one is very dangerous when taken with any amount of alcohol at all. Dangerous I suppose in the physical sense but also dangerous because it is so unpredictable.
Valium is still on my list though I don't like knowing that a chemical is likely to stay in my body for such a long time. Now I have a few questions about that - the range is from 20 hours to 100 hours. It is said that older people tend not to void their bodies of valium for longer periods of time. I am getting older. I recall in my 20's having over a thousand valium and taking them quite frequently. I never had any decernable withdrawals (although looking back on it, I may have had some and attributed it to something else). But I fear as I age I may wind up acumulating active compounds in my body and risking withdrawal even though I stagger or space my doses I may wind up with enoughi residual to precipitate a reaction.
After having read quite a bit about benzo withdrawals, I have gained a new respect and a bit of fear over this class of chemicals. Figure worst case scenarios, one 10 mg dose of valium can stay in your body for 100 hours and then break down into temazapam which also has a very long half life of 50 to 100 hours more.
Now figure I only take 10 mg every week, eventually I will gradually increase my body load - and that excludes any other benzos I might take in the mean time.
Anyway, I think I have exhausted my experiment having taken every benzo available. I would like to try Rohypnol and halcion some time in the future as they seem to have their own distinct personalities apart from the others.
I have come away with a new favorite, midazolam, it is short acting and when taken at twice the largest theraputic dose has a profound effect, but it seems to really screw up my short term and long term memory - possibly for days. . Finaly, lorazapam is in the favored category as well, although I have learned that this one is very dangerous when taken with any amount of alcohol at all. Dangerous I suppose in the physical sense but also dangerous because it is so unpredictable.
Valium is still on my list though I don't like knowing that a chemical is likely to stay in my body for such a long time. Now I have a few questions about that - the range is from 20 hours to 100 hours. It is said that older people tend not to void their bodies of valium for longer periods of time. I am getting older. I recall in my 20's having over a thousand valium and taking them quite frequently. I never had any decernable withdrawals (although looking back on it, I may have had some and attributed it to something else). But I fear as I age I may wind up acumulating active compounds in my body and risking withdrawal even though I stagger or space my doses I may wind up with enoughi residual to precipitate a reaction.
After having read quite a bit about benzo withdrawals, I have gained a new respect and a bit of fear over this class of chemicals. Figure worst case scenarios, one 10 mg dose of valium can stay in your body for 100 hours and then break down into temazapam which also has a very long half life of 50 to 100 hours more.
Now figure I only take 10 mg every week, eventually I will gradually increase my body load - and that excludes any other benzos I might take in the mean time.
Anyway, I think I have exhausted my experiment having taken every benzo available. I would like to try Rohypnol and halcion some time in the future as they seem to have their own distinct personalities apart from the others.
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