Unstructured text is so not worth reading....
Yes, respect her fucking wishes, jerk ass. You gave her the ring, she owns it, not you.
Here's an idea: Get the fuck off drugs(unless they're prescribed by a PhD), get a job, and take care of your kids.
Sounds like you really need to get your shit together(or maybe you're in the process). I'm not trying to be mean or rude.... But fuck, you got kids and shit, act responsibly, be a man, suck it up, and do what you need to do.