"I Got Addicted Without Ever Trying The Stuff"...A Photographer Addicted to Telling the Story of MMJ

Lily Rowland used to suffer hundreds of seizures with violent convulsions every day. Her mother, Sarah, moved the family from Minnesota to Colorado, which voted to legalize marijuana in 2012, so that Lily could begin a daily regimen of an oil derived mainly from cannabidiol (CBD), a non-psychoactive chemical in marijuana. The drug doesn’t work for everyone, but today nine-year-old Lily is often seizure free and even on her worst days has only one or two.

Beyond photographing the dispensaries, production facilities, and growers in the states that legalized cannabis—Colorado, Washington, and California (medical only)—what really caught Johnson’s attention were the parents of medically challenged children whose use of an oil derived mainly from cannabidiol (CBD), a non-psychoactive chemical in marijuana, is controversial. Some consider themselves “medical refugees,” having packed up and moved to Colorado from other states, some as far away as Maine, to begin a daily regimen of the oil.

Sarah Rowland is one such refugee (pictured above and below). “I had already met and wanted to find more families with children who are medically complicated and fragile, whose lives could really be made better by the use of cannabis—or not,” says Johnson. “And that’s the question: Is this good or is this bad? Does this work? And if so, what’s the cost to the families? Like, how do they decide without any knowledge, or research, or support, or legality? They’re kind of pioneers. I was fascinated by parents who decided to go it alone outside the sanctioned, normal medical community.”


Lily is virtually seizure free and is just beginning to experience life like never before. Here, she swings with her mother, Sarah, on a swing set near their home in Colorado.

“A good deal of anecdotal evidence shows that high-CBD strains of cannabis can have a strong antiseizure effect.” says Hampton Sides, the writer for the magazine story. But scientific evidence is in short supply. Currently, the DEA considers marijuana a Schedule I drug with no accepted medical use and as dangerous as heroin and LSD.

Orrin Devinsky, a neurologist at New York University, is leading a clinical trial to test CBD against a placebo in treating forms of epilepsy. “There’s a real potential, but we urgently need valid data,” he told the magazine. Until marijuana is reclassified, scientists are finding it difficult to do research that can give parents some real answers. Until then, they are on their own.


Marijuana grows in an irrigated field on the plains east of Denver—discreetly hidden behind rows of corn. This crop is hemp, a non-psychoactive variety with little tetrahydrocannabinol (THC). Its tough fiber has long been used for rope, paper, and fabric, but it’s also rich in compounds with medical promise. Some of this harvest will be used to make CBD oil, which is in such demand to treat children with seizures that cannabis growers have stepped up production.

Josh Ryan holds his two-year-old daughter, Sophie, who is diagnosed with optic pathway glioma. In December, a combination of traditional chemotherapy and parent-administered CBD and THC seemed to have shrunk her brain tumor (on screen: before, left; after, right).

Stories like that of Tracy and Josh Ryan motivate Johnson. Their two-year-old daughter, Sophie, has optic pathway glioma (photos above and below) and has been battling a brain tumor throughout her young life. “The family odyssey has been long and complicated, with lost jobs and life savings and endless hours in medical settings. They’re on Facebook to build support and funds for cannabis for other children with cancer,” Johnson said. The Ryan’s are now working with researchers at UCLA and USC to try and establish clinical programs using cannabis oil.


Tracy and Josh Ryan react to their daughter’s brain scan in May that showed some new black spots in the scan. Johnson has continued covering the Ryan family to show how complicated the process is. The Ryans calculate their own CBD treatments for their daughter. With little scientific research available to them, they are on their own.

“They believe that chemo combined with cannabis oil has really made an impact on this child’s life and shrunk the tumor. The problem is [that] that’s still a roller-coaster world for them because they can’t prove any of this. Some of it is by faith, but not enough of it is by science, and they are determined to gather the facts as well as see their child survive. So watching people struggle with that kind of life-and-death journey I find to be the most powerful and meaningful part of this story,” Johnson said.


Kim Clark’s younger son, Caden, 11, suffers from severe epilepsy. Despite having brain surgery twice, he’d never had a seizure-free day until he started taking CBD oil.


“There was a person in there waiting to be unlocked. I could see him, but I couldn’t reach him,” Kim says. Kim can now go home to Georgia because of a new state law that protects the use of CBD oil for seizure disorders.

“[The stories] accumulate in our bodies, in our tissues, in our minds. And the accumulation of those stories, of all that people share, it feels like that’s what I’m made of now,” Johnson said. “You carry people’s stories forever.”


Editor’s Note: Johnson’s personal photo essays about medically challenged children have not yet been published.

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