How can it be so wrong?

To grow and use pot in VA? I am sitting here thinking, while heavily medicated, why do I have to have fear in the back of my mind each day.

What I mean is...

A few of you know me by now. I am manic depressant, with anxiety, and suicidal tendencies. Until a few months ago, i was on just Zoloft to try and control the depression and suicidal thoughts. I was almost at a breaking point and I remembered what it use to be like when I smoked pot many years ago. So, I got high and with the zoloft and pot I am a completely different person.

Life suddenly isn't sooo bad. The aches and pains of my knees and back aren't as bad. It also helps with the anxiety, very affectingly.

So, after months now I can say I use about 2 grams a day of medicine. Can't afford that at "street" value. (Medicine being considered in terms like that just seems wrong).

So now I am growing 4 plants for my own personal use. I sit in, I don't bother anyone, and yet my state now considers me a criminal. In VA cultivation of any kind is automatically considered a felony.

So here I am now thinking, I use MJ to help with depression and suicidal tendencies and I am a peaceful person. Yet, if I got busted, I would go to jail.

I couldn't stand jail. The suicidal thoughts would win and I would hang myself in my cell.

It seems like a vicious cycle. It feels wrong to be a bad guy because I am growing 4 little plants.



Am I in the wrong or is it our government?

Naturally, you are right on target with your frustrations. No one, upon NO ONE should be treated like a criminal for opting for a much more natural "drug."

Science proves several times over it is much more efficient in providing relief for all too many aliments---minus the bogus side-effects.

If you ever should find yourself placed upon the criminal docket....feel free to share. I for one will stand up for your right.....well past time we all take this literal stance.

I just wish I didn't have to have this fear of being busted in my head. I am doing a 5 CFL Closet Grow, so I don't have any signs of suspicion I don't think. I have order absorbing gel and CFLs in the house. I try to grow smart, but I just can't get rid of the fear and I don't think I should have to feel like this for growing a fucking plant.