"Coming Home Again"

I just read this quote on erowid (on the medium effects of mushrooms) and I really understand what it means. Sometimes when I start to get high I feel more alive that my sober life is not real or Im sleeping and when Im high and reach that different state of mind that I am alive again or Ive just woke up from bad, boring dream. I know its talking about shrooms but I think weed, and maybe other drugs give u almost the same feeling as that. Its kinda like "Im alive again" kinda feeling and I look back at myself in my sober life as a daze and question if its real or not. I start to think that the way I think in my sober life is not me and I cant go back to it. Its really a breakthrough and makes u look at thing different.

But after Im sober again I forget that I ever felt like that lol, and I usually go back to the same boring life and get back to the same habits everyday. I also gotta add that my life is boring and nothing good is happening, but I got hope for the future. I guess the feeling is like a reality check and if u remember it, it might change ur life. Does any1 else ever have feeling of "Coming home again" when u get high on weed, shrooms, or other drugs?

There are 3 primary states

1. being your thought - most common state of man.. this is a delusional state.. when people believe their thoughts are reality.. when they actually react to their thoughts... 99.999% of all people reside ins this level of awareness.. they don't even know that they are asleep.. cause they are trapped in a myriad of thoughts

2. being aware of thought - requires a practice

3. no thought - when one stops thinking, and all that is left is reality... can be induced by drugs... drugs can give an artificial glimpse of this state... but the state can not be maintained without a practice a serious commitment to LOVING all matter..


alcohol, mushrooms, lcd, ecstasy and other drugs help slow thought down... providing a glimpse into reality...


stop thinking
everything you have left
is reality

there is thought and there is reality..

nothing else...

only the most committed and loving individuals on earth get to be aware of reality..



none of this is true

understand ?

I was confused if my sober life was reality or when im high was reality. Being high makes the world look much more peaceful and that feeling that everything is okay, a feeling that most ppl only experience in childhood and probly never will feel again. Every high is a little bit different but once in a while when im in a good mood and environment and get high then my mind is completely clear. That feeling of goin back to ur pure self with no worries like when u were a child, almost to a fearless state, and Im ready for whatever the world will bring.

Most of the time I realize that that feeling will not last long so I enjoy it as long as I can before going back to my sober self. But everytime I have a good high I get that feeling of coming home again and I never want to leave. Theres no way u could explain what that feeling is to someone that is always sober.