Dmannn
Well-Known Member
My name is ___. I m a disabled combat veteran trying to make ends meet in the world. I have always enjoyed smoking pot recreationally. When I was discharged from the service it became a big part of my life. It helps me cope with many symptoms of PTSD and TBI. I was in several close calls and a direct unprotected blast that has left my memory and temper very stunted. For this reason i have be smoking pot because it helps me deal with my losses. I have been in and out of jobs since the service. Mostly because of the treatment i have receive from my work peers and management. When people say "we understand" or " "thats a bit different than what i experienced" it makes me feel even more alone and separated. Over time people don't understand and have some resentment toward me. I'm married to my wonder loving wife ___. she has become my caregiver of sorts because of the mental and emotional state i'm in. Most days are good when i am working. I just recently separated from another job and am feeling pretty down. I try to give people positive advice as i find that to be helpful for me in dealing with my demons. I feel very sad and resentful of my time in the service and i feel like i wasted a better part of my life doing things that helped nobody. These are hard things to say with out being upset but i thought that if you really wanted to know who i am you wont have stopped reading. I see a lot of injustice in the world and it makes me family dishearten knowing there isn't much that can be done about it. I am have given up almost all hope in feeling positive for the future. I can't do much on my own anymore. I make too many mistakes and feel constantly down about my fading qualities. If there were some kind of way to separate from his life with out hurting those that loved me i would probably do so. That sounds pretty terrible but i down think life is worth living if people can take whatever thy want from me with impunity. This is what life is like for many of us.
