JointFarmer
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I just smoked some Lamb's Bread after not smoking any weed for two years.
I sat in an open field under the sky and slow moving clouds, with the gentle cool breeze. The clouds looked like secret mountain passage ways to heaven. My attention span opened up as wide as the Earth. I was in control of myself but not separated by thoughts. I felt like I could return to a state of mind that exists before alphabets, language, jobs, and work. Distance was also effected - houses that were far away didn't feel far anymore. I felt the pull of falling into an infinite number of faces, all distractions and temptations from being balanced. I understood how human apes could get stoned and immediately create a religion to capture the feeling and insights of being high. I felt I could easily become my former self, trapped in circular thinking and a tight body. I felt I had become so serious over the past two decades that I lost touch with how straightforwardly simple I could be. The sober me knows that isn't practical in the real world because everyone wants to do their own thing. I felt a calling to return to the 90s - bright, dark humored, obvious, and in your face. I saw the internal dialog I've been having about having children vs. being a full-on hedonist and not having children. I saw how dark my world could become by being narcissistically hedonist.
I felt like I could go full retard easily by looking at things upside down (giving top priority to the sky and outer space) and resisted the temptation to get lost in vision
I sat in an open field under the sky and slow moving clouds, with the gentle cool breeze. The clouds looked like secret mountain passage ways to heaven. My attention span opened up as wide as the Earth. I was in control of myself but not separated by thoughts. I felt like I could return to a state of mind that exists before alphabets, language, jobs, and work. Distance was also effected - houses that were far away didn't feel far anymore. I felt the pull of falling into an infinite number of faces, all distractions and temptations from being balanced. I understood how human apes could get stoned and immediately create a religion to capture the feeling and insights of being high. I felt I could easily become my former self, trapped in circular thinking and a tight body. I felt I had become so serious over the past two decades that I lost touch with how straightforwardly simple I could be. The sober me knows that isn't practical in the real world because everyone wants to do their own thing. I felt a calling to return to the 90s - bright, dark humored, obvious, and in your face. I saw the internal dialog I've been having about having children vs. being a full-on hedonist and not having children. I saw how dark my world could become by being narcissistically hedonist.
I felt like I could go full retard easily by looking at things upside down (giving top priority to the sky and outer space) and resisted the temptation to get lost in vision
