I hate my life.... please help - Page 3

Pookiedough · #21 05-20-2008, 09:45 AM

Seriously you only get one go at this, don't shit it up moping around picking out all the things that bring you displeasure if you do it just wastes time you wont get back.

goatamineHcL · #22 05-20-2008, 09:46 AM

sounds like its time for PHISH TOUR!!!!!!!
oh wait no more phish thour ;( oh well how bout sound tribe tour or its summer tiume try festival tour with some mixed shows in thier just take the summer off and hit the road

jimmyspaz · #23 05-20-2008, 09:47 AM

If I was your age I'd travel the world!! At least get it together to see Amsterdam once, it'll give you reasons to live!!

Yrteop · #24 05-20-2008, 10:30 AM

It makes me happy to see how many replies I have received. I think I need to just suck it up and grab life by the horns as they say. I dont know what I am going to do yet, but I think an adventure is in order. I have some soul searching to do. I have been talking to my parents today and they listen to me, which I am grateful for. They understand what im saying and they arnt saying no to a lot of my ideas. Its really all in my hands. I just need to to take that step. I think that will be the hardest thing. Ive been going down the same road all my life [metaphorically] and i think its time i try a different route, even if its not a shortcut. Thanks for all the posts. You guys brought a smile to my face today...

kronicsmurf · #25 05-20-2008, 02:31 PM

its seems to me that its perfectly normal to become dissatisfied with life and lose interest in everyday activities. i have had that problem not once but twice. you need to take a break from what your doing. if you want to see the world make a plan and do it. but suicide is not the answer its a cowards way out and you would only leave behind grieving loved ones. Deal with the problem, sit down and make a plan and if it takes a couple of years for you to have an epiphany so what, life is for living and learning get out there and find yourself

Conoclast · #26 05-20-2008, 02:45 PM

Sounds like depression dude.. doesn't weed help with that? I'm in the same boat as you right now but I've just got an interview for a job and that will maybe take my mind off things. Try to get something like that, maybe a hobby or something rewarding so you'll have something that you like while receiving stuff from it. Get what I mean? Oh and if you can you can find a psychologist to help you out since you do seem to be in quite serious shit. I've got both a psychatrist and a psychologist but psychiatrist just jack you up on pills.

Skate Hawaii · #27 05-20-2008, 09:18 PM

Do whatever makes you happy.

blinkykush · #28 05-20-2008, 09:35 PM

first off bro i am gonna be 26 now and i hated my early 20's up until just recently i was like WTF...i thought i would have it all figured out by now, but the truth is homie you never feel ambitious about life all of the time it comes in spurts like a bad bud drought, you find ways to get through it. Killing yourself is a permanent resolution to a temperary situation...JUST A VERY WAAAK! thought. Man life in my opinion is so worth living even in its glumiest haze its better than Nothing or no sunrise at all. My advice bro is just try and be in the moment, enjoy the smaller things that bring you pleasure and the rest will follow. People around you will see you are happy doing you so just do you and put the blinders on man. You can't expect to have it all figured out at 20, and in reality no one really wants you to, its all in your mind. I'll stop rambling and leave you with this thought, all to often we find ourselves WITH ONE FOOT IN THE FUTURE,AND ONE FOOT IN THE PAST, AND WE'RE PISSING ON TODAY. Be in the moment bro. PEACE

Stoney McFried · #29 05-20-2008, 09:41 PM

One thing you can always think of....there are always folks who have it worse. Perhaps that's no comfort to you, but it has helped me once in a while. I tried to kill myself when I was 19 years old.I was with my first daughter's father...at that time I'd never slept with anyone else....I had low self esteem to begin with and thought if I saved myself for one guy, he'd know how important he was.He turned and looked at me one day and said, "I only fucked you on a dare."So I went upstairs and ate 60 lithium, and I was scared and gagging and crying, but I choked them down and waited to die. As I lay there, a peace washed over me, and I thought...oh finally...it'll be quiet now.And I proceed to puke and shit.Afterwards, he found out what I had done from his neice, who was the only person I told...she was a year older than me...I guess she was just trying to get him to realize how he hurt me...and he said"maybe you'll do it right next time." I didnt mean to turn this into something about me...my point is...worse things have happened since then...and I have survived...and I can even laugh about a lot of it. Death is uncertain. You never know whats there till you get there. But you know, though life has its surprises....it's still life and you know you can live it, if that makes any sense. I still get way down...ask me tomorrow and I may not be able to give you a reason to live.But, reading your post, I can't see a reason to die, either.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Yrteop

I hate my life. Im 20 years old, white male from Pennsylvania. I go to a good college in southern california and im just sick of everything around me. Im an English major and its more of a hobby to me than a passion. My parents support me in pretty much anything i want to do, but for some reason nothing has been that rewarding. I have interests; cooking, reading, writing... but its nothing i can make a life out of. Im having a midlife crisis before i even have a life. Im just sick of all this. I even have a really cute girlfriend back in LA but she doesnt really get why im so upset with everything. I have so many goddamn opportunities but i just dont want any of them. I dont really care much for getting a ba, or getting some kush job after college. There are a lot things i want to do, but when i say them, they sound like strange fantasies to my parents.

To get my mind off things I think about ways to kill myself. But I dont think I have the balls to ever do it. I want to see the world but i dont know where to start. I constantly have these pipe dreams of just leaving this life behind and start hopping trains or something, but i dont know if i have the balls to do that either.

Im back home in pittsburgh now for the summer and things have been shitty. I dont know if i want to go back to school and its making my parents go freaking mad! Im just sleeping in and playing around on my computer. I dont know what to do. I dont really know why im posting this. Its almost 4am here and this is just a shot. Does anyone out there in this big/small world have any ideas? Please no B.S. Im getting to the end of my rope...
this is prolly a stupid idea but my email is CaptainCallahan@gmail.com

Philly_Buddah · #30 05-21-2008, 12:34 AM

Im not saying that u do becuz I dont know u or anything, but if u have depression or some mental disorder that shit can be really serious. I got depression really really bad years back and before that my life was actually pretty good, the depression hit me so hard and soon my life was over and has been since then pretty much. And thats not even factoring in my anxiety or episodes of psychosis and paranoia, Im doing better now though. Im just saying u should get urself checked for stuff like that before u decide to do anything.