What would you do if the most important person/animal/thing died?

While drinking and cannabis are fun in general, no amount you use will ever make the pain/feelings/memories go away, they will always be there both while intoxicated and sober. The pain will be pretty strong, but killing yourself is never the answer...would your wife and child want you to do that, would that be honoring their memory? I bet the answer to both is no. You just gotta make it through the tough times and remember that life goes on. I know it's easier said than done, but that doesn't mean that it can't be done. P.S. I know you weren't saying you were currently thinking of doing these things, my response just kind of makes it seem that way.

I think alcohol makes things much worse... I avoid it in hard times, and stick to kratom and mj.

I'd collect my inheritance, buy a 65 footer with an all female crew, and sail the globe as I mourn.

It did happen had to watch my father die but with help from my wife and kids i got on with it.

You never forget about people that touch our hearts?