suicidal without weed

**anonymuss** · 01-13-2011, 12:38 PM

when you smoke for severe depression (not a qualified disease for an MMC btw)...U pretty much need a steady supply of weed. at least 1-2 grams per day. which aint askin a WHOLE lot from life but hey.

when a manic depressive is off their meds, it is code reds.

when not high all i think about is blowin my brains out or hanging myself or all around doing the dutch (ironically due to lack of dutch)

for those that are depressed i hope u have alotta weed

but no take forever to grow plants take your fucking cock sucking time u always do anyway NEVER there when u r needed ALWAYS ALWAYS just a month away!!!

**Sr. Verde** · 01-13-2011, 12:51 PM

weed is just going to suppress the depression which is why it comes out when you dont have any

seek alternate methods to help yourself

**Bilstaaa** · 01-13-2011, 12:56 PM

Originally Posted by Sr. Verde

weed is just going to suppress the depression which is why it comes out when you dont have any

seek alternate methods to help yourself

+1, its a tempoary solution, obviously anti-depressants is not the way either, im sure they do councelling for this sort of thing? Sorry i cant help anymore, i dont know much about it

**Pipe Dream** · 01-13-2011, 12:58 PM

I find growing it to be a very powerful anti depressant myself. It gives me a sense of purpose and meaning sometimes when I feel down. When doing mushrooms I make sure that I am in a good mood and not stressing about anything or I might have a bad trip and sometimes if things aren't going well for me smoking weed makes me feel even worse.

**Benassi** · 01-13-2011, 01:18 PM

Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver

**anonymuss** · 01-13-2011, 01:22 PM

Originally Posted by Pipe Dream

I find growing it to be a very powerful anti depressant myself. It gives me a sense of purpose and meaning sometimes when I feel down. When doing mushrooms I make sure that I am in a good mood and not stressing about anything or I might have a bad trip and sometimes if things aren't going well for me smoking weed makes me feel even worse.

my motto / proven technique is, if weed doesnt make u feel better than smoke some more. Ive found that the right amount of weed can make any shitty situation manageable.

weed doesnt always do the trick for me either, than i tell myself UR NOT SMOKIN ENOUGH!

as for growing being an anti depressant, i agree, as long as u have weed while growing.

growing sober is bullshit

**anonymuss** · 01-13-2011, 01:23 PM

Originally Posted by Benassi

Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver

woa too much GTA!

**anonymuss** · 01-13-2011, 01:34 PM

Originally Posted by Bilstaaa

+1, its a tempoary solution, obviously anti-depressants is not the way either, im sure they do councelling for this sort of thing? Sorry i cant help anymore, i dont know much about it

nah i know exactly whats wrong with me and therapy would be ineffective

weed is my therapy, where i can slow down and actually figure out my problems.

then i do what little is in my power to correct my problems.

but with weed out of the picture there is no calm introspection, just anger, breaking things, yelling, and wanting to die.

its not lack of weed its lack of options (including weed)

**Sr. Verde** · 01-13-2011, 01:48 PM

Originally Posted by Benassi

Mostly stress problems I have. Ironically enough 2 hours ago coming back from getting lunch (sober) someone almost sideswipes my new car, then flips me off... I cut them off, locked up the brakes, got out of the car, walked straight to theirs and front kicked their side mirror to shit. Turned around, got in my car, sped off with my dealer plates.

Sober isn't fucking safe.

and I've never done something like that since I used my streetbike as a daily driver

THAT WAS YOU?! :O

jk

**Carne Seca** · 01-13-2011, 01:48 PM

Therapy isn't a cure for bipolar disorder. Bipolar disorder is physiological and psychological in nature. You need to get to a psychiatrist, get diagnosed and get medication. My nephew struggles with Bipolar Disorder as does my mother. When he was in the psych ward for a suicide attempt he was told by the resident psychiatrist to try marijuana as a treatment. He is in Colorado so he actually has a card. He uses Sativa for the depressive episodes and indica for the manic episodes. So far it has been working for him. He has the same problem you do when he runs out. That's why you need to have a back-up plan.

Bipolar Disorder isn't something to play around with. Get to a good psychiatrist/psychologist and work with them. Trust me, with the right medications and coping tools you can a have depression free life. I have two relatives that are doing very well despite the Bipolar Disorder. Good luck.