It's your age, and you're thinking too much. Start exercising, pump the weights, believe me there's no better confidence booster.

I smoke all day long, from the moment I wake up till the moment I go to sleep.

Listen to Dr Skunk and get yourself some muscle tone.

whats the point of living??
because its better than dieing.

and
theres music,
fun, trips, beaches. trees, xtc, beautiful women. warm weather. music festivals. hippie chicks, beer, fast cars, crotch rockets, bon fires. chillin, smokeing super good nuggs.

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to tell you the truth I used to have some sort of case of depression and felt much like you...so I smoked pot...if anything smoking pot allows me to clear my head and see things in a light I never thought I would see.

Yes, some strains do increase depression and others tend to alleviate depression. Because each strain of marijuana can be so completely different in their effects, you cannot accurately generalize and say "marijuana has such and such effect" on anything. I think that's why so many different laboratory experiments on marijuana tend to provide conflicting and/or contradictory results: because they are using different strains of cannabis in the research methodology that have totally different effects. One study might use an Indica and conclude that "weed makes you lazy", but some other strains actually seem to increase your motivation. I had one bag of weed that always seemed to make me want to clean up around the house even though I normally DREAD housecleaning - my house was never so clean before (or after) that bag of weed. hehe

Finally, ANY drug in my opinion can seem to "magnify" whatever you are feeling at the time you take them. Personally, I don't ever prefer to take any mind altering drugs unless I am in a good mood to begin with. At best you can only hope to escape the symptoms of negative emotions by taking drugs, but you will never confront or solve the problems that are actually causing those bad feelings to begin with.

I used to suffer from depression a lot myself too, but I learned something very important that helped me: Whenever you are feeling bad, you are ALWAYS focusing your thoughts on negative things. It is literally impossible to feel bad without focusing your mind in some way on something you don't want or don't like. By consistently choosing to focus on what you do want rather than what you DON'T want (or don't like), 95% of your depression will just cease to exist.

For example, you said you were thinking about how life was useless and pointless...but how might you feel if every time you noticed yourself thinking about that, you instead chose to think of just one thing you could do right now to provide meaning to someone in your life (even if only for a few minutes) - and actually did that thing? There is always SOMETHING you can do that is positive in some way, and for the time you choose to focus on any of them, in that moment the world is literally not pointless anymore. When you catch yourself thinking about how somebody did something wrong, try remembering instead a time when that person did something really right...or maybe somebody else who did something right, or even better yet something YOU could do right to make someone else feel good - even if it's just a small thing. The moment you change your focus, the way you feel will almost immediately begin to change in that direction as well.

You might think that sounds cheesy, but if you honestly watch yourself closely you will see that your feelings ALWAYS correspond to the tone of what you are thinking, focusing on, saying to yourself, and believing about yourself and the world around you in that particular moment. You can't always directly choose how you feel, but you absolutely can choose what you will think about and focus on, and when you take control and do that, your feelings will begin to change accordingly. =)

I like shiiitakes answer

i think shittake pretty much broke it
down for you bro. ha.

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I know this is over a year old but I think this needs some recognition here. I've been suffering from this sort of depression as well, and it does depend on exactly as this guy said . . . your thought process.

for the past 10 years of my life I've spent ridiculous amounts of time debating life and everything in it, trying to gain some higher understanding but I was answered with a crude cynical truth, the world isn't a nice and shiny place, it's grey and dark, but our minds fill in the beauty.

I mean, a beautiful mountain scene can be just as depressing as it can be the most amazing thing you have ever seen. there are always polar opposites to these situations and I think poeple just need to realize that their depression or their shitty outlook on life can sometimes be as simple as this . . .