So yea I am hic. This is me.
Always been diffrent even as a hatchling. I could never remember what I had read. In school I could read a paragraph 100 times and not remember or even comprehend what was written. Needless to say my life has been hard since the begining. Many of the children were able to be together but yet I was always kept in the filing cabinet rooms. I never did graduate and could not to this day. This will give you reason to why I cannot spell worth a shit and will give you reason why I skip around alot when typing. - so sorry
I was gonna shoot myself at the age of 11 with my fathers .22. I was gonna pull that fucking trigger. This is where God was embrassed and this is a major point in my life. You see at 11 I was tempted with thing most grown ups deal with. This adds to my character and was a very important night in my life for it made the future.
I was diagnosed with schizophrenia at a younger then average age. Keep in mind this was not created by drugs I feel I was born this way. To which many will call a curse I seem to be call it my gift. You see my life was hard until I learned how to harness this so called curse. It took me about 20 years, a move to Alaska, lots of praying, a repo, a shunning from society, a quarter pound of coke, 40 hits of acid and a hell of a long rocky road before the day that I could see just what the fuck was going on with me...
The day I understood that I was never going to get anywhere trying to kill what I was, was the day the pain left. Never try to be what the world wants you to be.. because that is not you. Be what you ARE and always try to improve on that!
Marijuana, I was 16 when I took my first puff... Now do you know what it is like to have a brain that is trying to proccess 50 things at once for 16 hours a day for 16 years and have it all stop? Do you know what can happen if a schitzo focuses on one thing? Watch the movie ""a beautifull mind" I can problem solve like a son of a bitch.
I also have the ability to see many things that are not seen with eyes. I will not go into this much as for it almost takes a see'er to speak to another see'er for there to be understanding on just what is being said.
I get feeling down somedays because I live in a world where all the rules have already been made. Example do you see any drop outs getting to go on a space shuttle or run for governor, Do you think a schitzo can even legally work for the FBI as a profiler? NO I can't because I have been stamped with a stamp of "he is a liability"....As if all scitzos are evil or something?. I don't know but I know it hurts sometimes.
I started growing marijuana at the age of 16 when legality was not around. Marijuana is the one thing I liked to do for the rush and for what the pot can do for my head sometimes. I am a grower that has not many limits to what can be done. I just assume feed michigan with money made from pot but yet I am limited for legal reasons. I have tooken pot and made it my own.
What I can do for the community?
#1 I can see lots of things.. ask me some questions and maybe we can figure shit out.
#2 I am retired at the age of 31... If I am needed I can be there.
#3 I have enough seeds for everyone
#4 I am willing to invest the money I do make into something great. Something bigger then me.
#5 I have free good black dirt. Come get a truck load.
#6 I have land if someone becomes homeless get a camper and stay for a bit.
#7 You may have all I have to offer. There are more things I am sure I can do. If you think I can help ya out just PM me.
#8 Last but most certainly not least is I can do whatever I want to do "as long as the laws of God are not broken"
I like to play on these forums. Sometimes I can be an asshole but that is OK. That is your insight into the guy they call hic.