imagine you are old

canndo said:

put it this way, death is a whole lot less theoretical now than it was twenty or even ten years ago.

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you can say that at just about any age though.... if the average human life was 1000 years, then people that are 900 would be talking about how death is so much more real than when they were 200, and so on.

But I also can see what you're saying, and I know you're way beyond me so you've probably already thought about most of what I think about in some way or another

and these 4 beers got me way more buzzed than I thought!

[QUOTEIdo, post: 10757143, member: 323996"]imagine decades ago you were enchanted with all things psychonautical. Imagine that you had taken acid hundreds of times in doses as small as 50 ug to as high as 550ug.

now imagine more for me. Imagine you had logged hundreds of hours in a sensory deprivation tank, many times on high doses of acid.

now imagine something else, after all these experiences, the good times and the frightening ones you took an average dose in an unremarkable setting with a perfect mindset, money in the bank, no issues with family, a fine girlfriend at the start of an exciting relationship.

imagine that the entire trip was dark and forboding, filled with ominous thoughts and feelings. Disturbing, anxious, coarse and gritty.

imagine that the next day there are foreign thoughts in your head, almost spoken words. "you are at the end of this journey. Your time here is up. Do not continue"

now imagine that two months later, those cautions forgotten, you take around 250 ug of acid you know to be pure, reliable and dependable, your go too stash.

now imagine the unimaginable horror of all emotions unleashed like fractals or a kalidescope but rather than colored glass they are emotions. Horror, disgust, glee, delight, hatred, loathing, love, compassion, terror, abject fear, elation, cowardous, shame, shame, shame, joy, embarassment, rejection, saddness, all cycling unpredictably complete with tears and moronic laughter to the point that your friends are genuinely fearful for you but the emotions slamming into you, at time conflicting ones two, three at a time for hours and hours through the night.


now imagine that was 35 years ago. Imagine that universe has been calling, that place you mapped through hundreds of voyages is waiting and you would like to go home.

imagine finally that you have lived a full, examined life, trying to be an exemplary person but you are aware of the monsters you keep under your bed, placed there by that very act of self examination and attempts at enlightenment.


imagine you have lived sixty two years and it is impossible to do that without an accumulation of such beasties.

would you take lsd again?[/QUOTE]
......I dont have to imagine being old........it smacks me in the face every morning
And to answer your question nope my acid taking days are behind me... my last trip wasn't a good one ! But by all means continue on your journey to places you've never been speaking to people that dont hear and showing people amazing things they can't see and listening to people who cant talk and when you realize you can't tell fact from fiction that's when you know your journeys complete or is just begining

canndo said:

put it this way, death is a whole lot less theoretical now than it was twenty or even ten years ago.

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I respectfully disagree ...ION"S has measured the human soul... I for one believe it exist's and with modern dimensional theories and so much unexplained quantum mechanics I believe it's just as Theoretical as ever

oldtimer54 said:

[QUOTEIdo, post: 10757143, member: 323996"]imagine decades ago you were enchanted with all things psychonautical. Imagine that you had taken acid hundreds of times in doses as small as 50 ug to as high as 550ug.

now imagine more for me. Imagine you had logged hundreds of hours in a sensory deprivation tank, many times on high doses of acid.

now imagine something else, after all these experiences, the good times and the frightening ones you took an average dose in an unremarkable setting with a perfect mindset, money in the bank, no issues with family, a fine girlfriend at the start of an exciting relationship.

imagine that the entire trip was dark and forboding, filled with ominous thoughts and feelings. Disturbing, anxious, coarse and gritty.

imagine that the next day there are foreign thoughts in your head, almost spoken words. "you are at the end of this journey. Your time here is up. Do not continue"

now imagine that two months later, those cautions forgotten, you take around 250 ug of acid you know to be pure, reliable and dependable, your go too stash.

now imagine the unimaginable horror of all emotions unleashed like fractals or a kalidescope but rather than colored glass they are emotions. Horror, disgust, glee, delight, hatred, loathing, love, compassion, terror, abject fear, elation, cowardous, shame, shame, shame, joy, embarassment, rejection, saddness, all cycling unpredictably complete with tears and moronic laughter to the point that your friends are genuinely fearful for you but the emotions slamming into you, at time conflicting ones two, three at a time for hours and hours through the night.


now imagine that was 35 years ago. Imagine that universe has been calling, that place you mapped through hundreds of voyages is waiting and you would like to go home.

imagine finally that you have lived a full, examined life, trying to be an exemplary person but you are aware of the monsters you keep under your bed, placed there by that very act of self examination and attempts at enlightenment.


imagine you have lived sixty two years and it is impossible to do that without an accumulation of such beasties.

would you take lsd again?

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......I dont have to imagine being old........it smacks me in the face every morning
And to answer your question nope my acid taking days are behind me... my last trip wasn't a good one ! But by all means continue on your journey to places you've never been speaking to people that dont hear and showing people amazing things they can't see and listening to people who cant talk and when you realize you can't tell fact from fiction that's when you know your journeys complete or is just begining[/QUOTE]


as you saw, mine wasn't either. A part of the delema.

we can play it any way we want. A part of getting old is making. Better and better friends with the end. If you are very lucky and time it just right you will grow tired of life the day it is tired if you.

I'm not there yet. My father out grew his life by about three years, my mother said she wanted another five. My grandfather was pissed, he was 99 and wanted to beat that last challenge.

my brother fucked up. He made the mistake of betting he would not live as long as he has. Now he is miserable.

the point is that even an examined life is filled with monsters.

canndo said:

put it this way, death is a whole lot less theoretical now than it was twenty or even ten years ago.

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who is dying? are you dead, or is your physical body dead? isn't your soul still alive? let's not be so quick to assume death is a reality. maybe we never really die.

"To the well organized mind, death is just the next great adventure" - Albert Einstein

i believe my soul has been alive since the dawn of time. therefore i have been alive since the dawn of time. i've been through many physical bodies, but i have never died. death does not exist. i'm still here.


do you believe all of the knowledge and wisdom you possess has been obtained in this one lifetime?

think of your existence as a book. there are many pages and chapters. each chapter is one lifetime, and each page is a compilation of experiences you've had in that chapter's lifetime. the more we evolve, the bigger this book becomes. and how are we to evolve if we're trapped in the same vessel for our entire existence? our bodies must die for us to move forward in our journey. however, we, the true 'I', yourself, pushes forward towards a new life filled with new experiences.

at the moment of death, we turn the chapter. from the point of rebirth, we begin filling in the pages. and the cycle continues...

death is the purpose of life

rory420420 said:

no,skuxx meant 2milligrams
fuck yea canndo,id go for it.you survived the first time.

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Im sure 2 mg opens your head, dumps your brain out, and does who knows what with it, then puts it back in to let you figure it, someday, maybe I will know....

wait a minute, I'm not looking to figure anything out. That's what mushrooms are for. I am just considering eating a bunch of acid after having had the door barred for three decades.

CCCmints said:

i believe my soul has been alive since the dawn of time. therefore i have been alive since the dawn of time. i've been through many physical bodies, but i have never died. death does not exist. i'm still here.

do you believe all of the knowledge and wisdom you possess has been obtained in this one lifetime?

think of your existence as a book. there are many pages and chapters. each chapter is one lifetime, and each page is a compilation of experiences you've had in that chapter's lifetime. the more we evolve, the bigger this book becomes. and how are we to evolve if we're trapped in the same vessel for our entire existence? our bodies must die for us to move forward in our journey. however, we, the true 'I', yourself, pushes forward towards a new life filled with new experiences.

at the moment of death, we turn the chapter. from the point of rebirth, we begin filling in the pages. and the cycle continues...

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Assuming your not a minion incarnation

Did you ever pull the trigger Cann??

WHODAT@THADOR said:

Did you ever pull the trigger Cann??

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he's old, he might not remember!!!

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Nope he's all good I found Him!!!!
Poor Cann

wheres his scotch,cigar,and pin-pupils?..

I'm 63 years old and the last time I took acid was in the early 70's. Given the opportunity to trip again I would have to say no as I ;earned later in life I have Bi-polor 2 disorder and wouldn't want to take the chance with my medications for that interacting with the acid.

well,its not like it can give it to you twice...

bullwinkle60 said:

I'm 63 years old and the last time I took acid was in the early 70's. Given the opportunity to trip again I would have to say no as I ;earned later in life I have Bi-polor 2 disorder and wouldn't want to take the chance with my medications for that interacting with the acid.

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I think you should ask your doctor for a second opinion......"Hey doc.... I wanna take some LSD today with my prozac......Then when I get all horned up latta I wanna tear up my old lady....Do you think that will be OK? ROFLMFAO

perhaps the dr will have the boogie woogie and dose you for free!...

rory420420 said:

perhaps the dr will have the boogie woogie and dose you for free!...

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OOOOOO ya that would awesome...He should try that out

WHODAT@THADOR said:

Did you ever pull the trigger Cann??

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HA!

I can't find any. I figure I will eat some if I find it. Life is strange. Age changes things, I can get pot or coke in an hour from other people my age but acid? Maybe other people have confronted the dilema and figured it isn't wise.

Well thats a bummer. I wish I could help.