Bipolar here also found that pharmies suck. Weed rocks. Give it a couple of years tokin and you'll probably come to a point where you don't need to smoke anymore. I've come to a poit where don't smoke for long periods at a time and i'll smoke every now and then.

The only pharms that I found do work are the ADHD meds my doc gives me...basically legal speed...wow are those fun...I can clean a whole house in an hour with a toothbrush and a bar of soap.

I knew a guy who was on ADHD pharms ... he hated them, so he sold them to his fellow college students. Made a killing 'round exam time.

Out of everything I've ever tried -- weed has helped me the most. Best for stress, mood and just about everything else.

Yeah, if I took them every day like my doc wants, I'd never sleep and be dehydrated as hell

First off -- I'd like to thank you for serving your country (be it US or Canada). I have nothing but reverence for those who serve in the military. My brother served in the Canadian military for many years, and he wants to go back but he can't due to an existing medical condition. Even before he served, I've always respected soldiers.

Secondly -- I do know anti-depressants can be effective, but they don't work for everyone. But the attitude is that they work all the time and if they're not working for you than YOU are at fault. That's how I feel, anyway.

And, as I was typing this, I've had A&E on in the background. Three commercials for three different anti-depressants have aired. The amount of money made from these drugs is ... well, it's disgusting. Making billions off of people's misery without really caring how things end up....

I'm not against making money. Capitalism is good! But not when it harms people.

As for feeling like a zombie ... well, you're not depressed anymore. You're not much of anything anymore. Happiness is muted and fleeting. Sadness is there but not, always lurking under the surface and waiting for the right time to strangle you.

Aye, I bet if you said something to the doc about it they'd add another med.

Gotta admit, the search for the right strain has to be the best part. ^^

I hate panic weed...gahhh had that once or twice...and yes my doc is happy about adding more meds...but hes old school I guess....so I just stockpile my meds for when i may be too short on cash to buy them and really need them.

It isn't capitalism when the governement steps in to enforcably regulate laws (Or in some cases, a lack thereof) in favor of pharmacutical empires.

I've also experimented wtih Savlia and DXM in a handful singular therapudic sessions over the past 4 years with a moderate amount of success. They don't help his sociability but they have helped his perspective and ability to handle mood swings on a day to day and sober basis.

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