I am 23 years old stuck in a marriage held together by pharmacology. I wasted 4 years of my life working for a company I thought I could advance in. I can drink an 18 pack of beer in a single sitting, alone. The only people I feel comfortable talking to are faceless avatars on the internet and I don't have a single friend. Not a close friend, but any friends, I can't think of a single person I could call to grab a beer with right now, even if I was buying. I was voted runner up to most likely to succeed in high school and it really does hurt me so much to see everyone I knew getting good jobs and building lives knowing that I won't. I am going through my first semester of school and I don't know how I am going to make it through another 4 years. I am working full time, working at least 20 hours a week on the side, managing my house and do school.

I guess I just needed to vent, I just doubled up on my antidepressant and chased it with my 7th beer, I'll be better soon. Thanks for listening.

Thank you for sharing this with us.
Cheers Buddy !

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Damn man i can finish an 18 pack as well, sorry to hear all that, but one thing i can tell is not to let shit get to you like that, shit happends, oh well, you cant let it take over you life for a couple things, yea life sucks but everyone has to do it, wether there somthing for us after or not, were all here, friends arent everything, thats what family is for, if not family then whats so wrong about speakin to people like us who dont even kno you, at least its somthing right? like my man Tupac said keep you head up

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booze wont help man,
it takes the pain away for a bit,, but it just gets worse.

You need to find something to make you go on. Something that makes you smile. something that makes you want to get out of bed in the morning and live another day. If you dont have something like that then you need to find it

Ditch the bitch and find a honey to take your mind off her. Have a little fun, blow off a little steam and enjoy life.

Quit your job and take some time off to "find yourself". think of what would make you happy in life.

obviously the road you are taking is getting you no where.

Dont get caught up in drinking and taking pills, everything just goes down.

Things could always be worse.

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Not telling you what to do here, just saying what I did. I completely changed my life. Moved to another country and started all over again. I had to get away from all the crap and start fresh. I left with about a thousand pound in my back pocket, rented an apartment and got a job to pay the bills. Then I toured around a bit to see the scenery. Changed my outlook on life in general and made me realise what was important. What's important now to me is just taking it easy and enjoying life as much as possible. Don't work your guts out for anybody, employer or spouse. It never gets you anywhere. Take a step back and look around you for a month or two. Live for yourself and don't let any fucker get you down. Just remember you're in control. Money isn't important, as long as you can get enough to get by. The rest is all about enjoying life and keeping it all in perspective.

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You should try drinking better beer.

god damn bro just pm me, ill drink a beer with you over the net friends aren't really friends its been 4 montsh since i graduated high school i have had no contact with any of my friends from high school and im happy about it. but if ya wanna meet people ya gotta get out the house, there is a special someone for everyone out there somewhere

Matt I feel for you man I went through similar things. Its hard but you can break free and be happy as hell trust me. Job, money,house all this stuff is not success bro. True success is inner peace, if you are not happy with what is going on stop doing it. It is hard at first but once you realize you are free to do whatever you want happiness is not far behind.

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