I was just wondering if anyone on here has there own personal beliefs or religion that is not an actual religion but simpily personal belifs

i have my own personal religion kind of ...
i kind of belive that there is a god and it created the universe (or was among this universe many years ago and completed it journey to help us on ours) and this god is controlling all of us .. every second of every day , it is not fully controlling us but it is doing quite alot ... what it's doing i like to call instincts (or things such as us walking and not thinking about placeing every foot down or our heart beating non-stop without us have to controll it) and i feel our journey is to escape this grasp and gain self controll and to not be controlled by god. now i feel that smokeing marijuana (or consuming it in any way and getting high) lets us controll ourselves more (not fully but alot more) such as being hungry (we like the taste of food and food keeps us alive) and we finish our journy be going from lifetime to life time learning about how to become free of gods grasps ..now where we go each life i dont know but i do think that here on earth being humans is just one of the many life times we will have or have had... i think that pretty much sums up my religion and how we are all on a journey to pretty much escape god .. i would really love to hear about other peoples religions esspecialy if there like mine where we are try to get away from god witch it totaly an oxymoron religion

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