I made it!!

Downtowntillman

Downtowntillman

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A year ago today I woke up shaking like Michael J fox.. First day of sobriety. Couldn't even dial the phone. 3 days later I was discharged. I have had some great support from some great people. And sure plenty of haters. But today I can say I'm one year sober. Didn't get here all at once. One day at a time!!
 
ZaraBeth420

ZaraBeth420

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Downtowntillman said:
A year ago today I woke up shaking like Michael J fox.. First day of sobriety. Couldn't even dial the phone. 3 days later I was discharged. I have had some great support from some great people. And sure plenty of haters. But today I can say I'm one year sober. Didn't get here all at once. One day at a time!!
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What kind of haters did you have to deal with, if you don't mind my asking?

Congratulations on a whole year.
 
Downtowntillman

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tyler.durden said:
Good for you, bro. Alcohol sux. Are you in the program, and are you getting your coveted one-year chip? If so, pics! I'm sending 2 prostitutes to your house to celebrate, they should be there shortly...















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The one on the right.. Mmmmm mmmmmm thanks ty. No I did it my way. Never went to any meetings. Don't have a desire for it. I usually do things differently than others.
 
Hookabelly

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that is AWESOME!! I'm sure it must have been hard. Was there a certain point where you were sort of "over the hump" and past the constant craving? Was the physical harder than the emotional/Mental part?

You did it though. On to the second year...
 
Downtowntillman

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Hookabelly said:
that is AWESOME!! I'm sure it must have been hard. Was there a certain point where you were sort of "over the hump" and past the constant craving? Was the physical harder than the emotional/Mental part?

You did it though. On to the second year...
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When I quit I had pretty much lost everything. My relationship with pretty much everyone around me had dwindled to nothing and I had lost my job.

I didn't know I had to work and my buddy came by and was like... You ready?? Drunk as hell. 5 in the afternoon.. Oh yea. 3 sheets... Hell yea let's do it.. Was my ignorant response. Should have called in. But it led me to here so, everything happens for a reason. Needless to say. I went into work drunk, got fired. Thanksgiving was the next day. I drank my ass off that day. I don't remember shit but the woman that checked me in didn't search me and I was regretting not bringing something stronger than what they were gonna give me. But I made it out alive. 3 days in detox. 1 year later. Still taking it one day at a time. Thanks for the Love guys!!:peace:
 
abe supercro

abe supercro

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Hookabelly said:
that is AWESOME!! I'm sure it must have been hard. Was there a certain point where you were sort of "over the hump" and past the constant craving? Was the physical harder than the emotional/Mental part?
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the physical stuff subsides within the first month or two, it's the psychological tends to be along for ride. most somewhat structure life around any sub(s), nu habits have to be formed. it's the culture too- bombarded w drink advertising, everywhere. drink, pills, weed, anything can be an escape or complicate life or relationships.

i prolly somewhat substituted herb for alcohol. another hurdle to keep in check
 
Hookabelly

Hookabelly

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abe supercro said:
the physical stuff subsides within the first month or two, it's the psychological tends to be along for ride. most somewhat structure life around any sub(s), nu habits have to be formed. it's the culture too- bombarded w drink advertising, everywhere. drink, pills, weed, anything can be an escape or complicate life or relationships.

i prolly somewhat substituted herb for alcohol. another hurdle to keep in check
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I think addiction is tricky. Sometimes I drink/smoke to avoid shit, but I find I can't be in that state for too long. I have a real need for sharpness and lucidity. I don't want that coming across as judgy, I only mean that sometimes I wish I could use drugs to escape. But when I try it it just makes me worse and more paranoid. Does that make any sense?
 
abe supercro

abe supercro

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yea if you're too gone for too long, it become a mountain from a molehill. moderation isn't easy w addictive personalities.

You know/realize there's no escaping. wake up to everything all over again, same shit, drugs/drink didn't fix, mainly having lost a handful of potentially fruitful hours, whatever that looks like.
 
Hookabelly

Hookabelly

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I think I have an addictive personality but substances aren't one of the things that make me stumble. Now other things, if I had to give them up, then...
 
Downtowntillman

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abe supercro said:
. You know/realize there's no escaping. wake up to everything all over again, same shit, drugs/drink didn't fix, mainly having lost a handful of potentially fruitful hours, whatever that looks like.
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Exactly... Couldn't have worded it better. Once it's a routine and the gratification is gone. It's just baggage then.
 
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