how to shake the bad vibes off while medicating

Hey whats up everybody? Well I was looking for some advice I am a disabled vet ex 11b 240machine gunner I am just going to lay this shit out in hopes of somebody can hit me with sum knowledge to get my head right when I medicate for years after I was discharged I self medicated with xanax and vodka and jameson whiskey these things made me a bad person super violent couldnt hold a job or keep a girl I eventually discovered herb it calmed me and relaxed me let me sleep more than 4 hours I love super lemon haze it just makes life seem pretty good but last few months I would be so paranoid not paranoid but I guess I think about to many what ifs u know? And dwell on the people I lost in my life just sadness the meds the va gave me never helped me all that counseling bullshit whiskey did help me at the time but I am a father now and if I start drinking again ill eventually fuck up and end up in prison or dead I have brain damage and a fucked up leg so I am in constant pain but when I smoked or ate edibles I could cope and ranger on and be normal I have even tried different strains to see if that help I can talk my self down but its not enjoyable I just want to be able to cope with the pain of my wounds and demons without turning to pills or meds I have been reading up on strawberry diesel it sounds promising for my next grow well if anybody has any advice hit me up well thanks for listening "out"

Hang in dude. Glad you found good medicine.
Grow well. Success!

Sorry bout your situation.
All I can recomend is find a strain tgst is not haze lol.
Try some mostly indicas and just accept that you may feel out of sorts for a few.
If there is anything you do enjoy
have it ready as a distraction and before you know it the racey mind will give way to relaxation.
Just dont judge every thought.
There are some newer strains with low thc n high cbd that may help.
Maybe a nice indica tincture.
Anyway hope you get some comfort.
By the way the voices are only partly correct.
No one is all bad or all good.
peace

I would suggest buying the seeds of strains you like and growing them.
Keep yourself moderately high and happy with plenty of stock.

You need to change the way you think, you're not a young man anymore.
You have a child and a life and need some reprogramming.
It's up to you if you go backwards and start taking the pills and alcohol again.

Hey yall thanks for hittin me up I wouldnt even be talking about this shit personally to any one in real life its a sign of weakness in my culture I am full blooded indian half Muscogee creek and seminole and I will suck it up with my pains str8 up before I fall back into the bottom of a whiskey bottle thank u sirs just for taking the time to gimme your thoughts

It's impossible to make a brighter future without forgiving and letting go of the past. Cliche, simpleton, over-said, whatever. It's just the way it is. When we make decisions, it's not the last time we make those decisions; we're faced with them again and again in future encounters. You gotta get into the habit of choosing the right ones, and in this case that decision would be forgiving yourself for the people you've hurt, and no amount of herb is going to make that just happen for you. I know it helps, especially with your pain, but cannabis does not control your mind it simply dances on the foundation of who you already are. My point is, if you aren't truly happy with life before smoking it, you won't be truly happy after.

Hey, we've all been through some tough shit. I have no definite clue what it must have been like for you, good God. However, I wish you the best and I understand your frustration in some key ways. Much love man.

Thanks for your service Ranger! I quit drinking about 20 years ago when I was still active duty. I was having bad anxiety/panic attack issues and they put me on meds so i couldnt mix the two. After 20 years of using zombie drugs I said fuck it and stopped taking them.......well almost....got cut back to a very low dose but soon to be off that too. I did like 5 years worth of reading about cannabis before I even tried it. It seemed like a good option and it was. I just wish the VA would get on board. Ive been using straight indicas so far and I dont get paranoid. Im currently growing Pennywise which is supposed to be equal in THC and CBD. Around 13% i think. Should be good for pain.

Only reason why alcohol helps is because is says
" Give strong drink unto him that is ready to perish, and wine unto those that be of heavy hearts.
Let him drink, and forget his poverty, and remember his misery no more." in the HOLY BIBLE but don't abuse it my parents did when I was being raised made it miserable for me and my sibling.
But what you want man is the highest Indica you can get don't let anyone tell you different for that paranoia. I suggest M.O.B if available for you God bless and check my thread about God.

As mentioned, Indica dom strains seem to cause less anxiety for me.

Vet to Vet.
Thank you for your service.

keep trying different strains. sativa spectrum tends to overstimulate the mind, perhaps not the best for anxiety. Indica mellows and is a decent substitute for alcohol.. kinda numbing pain reliever. I've also heard of many ppl who get relief from sativas, so explore.

another benefit from cannabis is that it makes dreamtime more dreamer friendly for me... (lol?). overall my 'dreams' are a whole lot less vivid, in a good way, while enjoying cannabis.

Sorry to hear your troubles my brother.. I think that adding a good dose of CBD to your smoke will eliminate unwanted thoughts. The new cbd strains are awesome for eliminating anxiety/paranoia etc...

I'm still experimenting, but one thing I did was mix some cannatonic with some indica and smoke together. Cannatonic is high in cbd.
I have also heard it helps to smoke leaf. I'm just guessing, but maybe it has more cbd.

Also eating edibles will result in better pain relief and less mind effects.
GHo to leafly.com and look up different strains and make sure they do not cause anxiety.

You may want to try dr.greenthumb cbd medi plant, which is one of his new strains and has strong thc and strong cbd would be a good plant for pain and will get you lifted with the thc

Some really good indicas that I have tried are Diablo OG, Bubba Kush, and Sky walker kush.
Look for something that has euphoria properties so that your not dwelling on passed things and you live in the present happily medicinally.

I completely understand what your feeling. I think many cannabis users have experienced this at one time or another. Finding the right strain can help, maybe something not so potent, and probably an Indica Dom. Sometimes I feel a bit of anxiety right after I smoke but it passes within 10 to 15min. It helps to have a diversion. Occupy yourself by doing something simple- small house chores or something like that. One thing that I've ran across recently is the use of Harmony Balls- two small, usually metal balls that fit into your hand that you slowly swirl/rotate. Google them for more detailed info. They tend to divert your attention away from negative thoughts- it could be worth a try, they're only about $10. I've also found that finding something interesting to watch on TV helps. Non Fiction programs that make you follow closely. Physical activity will work also, but nothing too strenuous. Hang in there. Hope you feel better and find what will work for you, everyone is different. GL

I think all marijuana users experience this at some point, in some shape or form. It happened to me around ten years ago, i overcame it by making a conscious decision not to let it affect me negatively,, had to tell myself to fuck the bad vibes, weed is meant to be fun but wont help much if you are already feeling down. dont let it get to you! Chin up, watch some south park and laugh ur ass off buddy i still get a bit para from time to time, and when.that happens the key is to realise you are only thinking that stuff cos u r are high, and you should be able to snap out of it, its almost like when you realise you are dreaming, you tend to wake up. Im not sure how far strain differences.affect.this, for many years i.had no clue what i was smoking.

Hope ive been able to be constructive, good luck with it

I'm with sunny on the CBD-rich strain recco. I've found that proper CBD-rich strains arent nearly as psychoactive, and dont give any of the anxiety that a high-THC strain may give. But if you need the THC hit, I'd go for a heavy Indica, like a hash plant, mixed with a bit of CBD-rich strain.

Best to you in your search.

I have diablo og.. in an o-pen. I like it.,..

I just wish they wouldn't name things the way they sometimes do. I feel it may affect the plant on a molecular level and my psyche when ingesting it. I had one strain named Presidential Obama. I threw it out. I just couldn't tolerate the name and couldn't get over it

I recently picked up some Harmony Balls and have been using them daily. Believe it or not but they do work for anxiety.

This sky walker og is pretty good... Try to hang out with decent people that will keep you outta trouble and that are well enough for your conversations to be therapeutic. Strawberry diesel sounds good... Last few diesels I had were dank and smelly...
Also keep your mind busy... Only people in jail go nuts.

This sounds like a good place for some weekend molly experiences!
I've had problems with the xans and alcohol too but that was like you say more or less "self prescribed).
I found if I left out the alcohol (which should be my fave part since it intensifies the affects of the xans) I wasn't angry/hostile/violent. It was the combo for me.
But anyway we went thru these phases of weekly jams/parties in the basement and the only time I never really had a problem with someone was when we switched it up to straight up mdma. So we stuck with that for months.
Parties are over now, everyone is older and gone their own way even though we still live blocks from one another.
I'm back on the xans but find it easier to get along since basically ain't nobody here!
Good luck.
OH P.S. Dunno that it's been mentioned but about the original post. Perhaps a nice set of headphones and some binaural beats geared toward relaxation would help after a nice bowl/blunt . and don't forget the fruity glasses with leds in them to stimulate even more!