Getting your MMj card here is easy, it just takes a couple hundred bucks to pay the doctor and the state registration fee. And the economy here is better then most of the country, so finding a job isn't as hard as it would be in say, California. I can definately relate to your situation because my ex wife used MJ as her excuse to walk out on me close to 20 years ago. Only advice i can offer is to keep yourself focused on other things, and eventually enough time will go by that it stops hurting so much.