My dads diagnosed Bi-polar. i inherited his "bad genes" of course and have my fair share of problems. im not to the degree he was. but i got on meds over a year ago and was still smoking. the meds helped at first to get my serotonin levels back where they needed to be from all the exstasy. i was drinking and doing coke.. bad stuff, but once my mind was clear the meds just made me bitchy and mean and paranoid. so i kicked em about 5 months ago and ive never been better. god made weed man made pills, alcohol etc. who do you trust?

I'm so very sorry to hear your pain. I have been in the same type of situation and smoking weed was the only thing that saved me. I have done the meds thing and will continue to stay on low dose meds BUT I will have my weed too.

I go to a specialist in 2 weeks and hopefully I will be on my way to being legal.

Please keep in touch with us here. I have bi-polar disorder so I do understand depression as do many others here. We also like to have lots of fun and joke around which isn't bad for the spirit either.

Take care papajock I'm an old smoker from the 70's too.

I have bi-polar also and do know that doing the $hit you're talking about is BAD news for people like us. I am glad you found that out.

Although its 2007 the medical establishment still are not sure exactly how to treat all people with bi-polar disorder. For some people lithium works great, but for others, its horrible. There are so many systoms of bi-polar disorder and so many variables of the same illness. Its not an exact science and I also self medicate and have done so for about 30 years now.

I have had my fair share of the government experimenting on me at my expense so I am applying to get my medical license so I can smoke and grow legally. So far things are looking good.

I hope you stay on this path and stay off the hard drugs. People like us especially can't afford to do that kind of stuff. Its deadly for bi-polar. I know you know.

Take care

Thanks Lacy. Been occupying my time with a DWC setup (DIY). Been using this site for research. It will be my first grow. I have some kalichakra from mandala seeds and some widow skunk on the way. Kal is a happy-go lucky high for daytime. Widow skunk, still sativa mix, but more laid back for night. Just hope they arrive OK (usa). Hoping the grow will keep me busy enough to keep my thoughts in check.

Good luck with that bro. Keeping busy definitely helps, because you don't have the time to think about things. You should pick up a hobby too man and keep yourself really busy. Like working out or something, scientists actually found out that exercise releases serotonin in your brain. IDK this may or may not be of any help to u, just my .02$.

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Good points blaze. Keep yourself busy. this hobby will have your interest for sure plus just the act of pampering live plants is good for the soul.

Exercise is very important and so under-rated. It helps so much. I don't know what state I would be in if I didn't exercise.

You gonna start a grow journal? Mmm..widow skunk sounds good.

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I would, but I dont have a camara. You are right on about working out. I have on and off throughout the years and always felt better when I was. Right now I need to get out of this deep depression. I hurt all over my body and I know most of the pain is depression related. If I can get out of the funk I am in right now, I hope to be able pump some iron and get rid of some aggression. Thanks for the feedback. You are good people.