hey guys whats going on?? kinda new to the site, i have an experience i would like to share and would appreciate your thoughts comments etc... Ok so i am 21yrs old, and ever since i was 17 until about 6 months ago i was all about tripping on lsd, rolling, eating shrooms, and i have taken molli (pure powder MDMA) on more than one occasion...not streadily but ive proably tripped on lsd 10-20 times, shrooms 10-15 times, rolled more than i can count and got strung out on 3 grams of molli for like a wek and a half..... not i never really got strung out on anything for lon periods of time except for the molli (week and a half) but on weekends taking and number of these. prob every other weekend at times... now last year i ate 2 hits of LSD they were gold jellys and i tripped my BALLS off...never tripped so hard in my life...i saw a god acting through another person, and it was nothing but a child who said we all get lost but find or way in the end....also every summer i go to music festivals about 3 or 4 times a summer and theyre 3 days long where i camp and my frinds and i get compleyely spun for 3 days....which now worries me... now im kinda taking a much needed break and i am paranoid at times, i want to be social but i just find it too hard and exhausting, and sometines i just feel plain retarded...ever heard the saying your brain gets smart but your head gets dumb.....thats mee..while psychedilcs have helped me to come to some conclusions in life...i worry that i may have some serious long term effects to deal with...at times i feel like im tripping when im not at all...im afraid that phycosis or tripping or whatever it is is now a reality i am stuck with...it doesnt happen all the time, but alot of times i feel that when people talk there are two meanings... what they say, and then there is a second meaning that pertains only to me...in my own head..its weird, i feel like they are looking right through me and a supernatural force is acting thorugh them..really weird shit...and i feel like i am a seeker, im looking for something but i dunno what it is... and the trips come in wavees and i feel like im crazy....but i like it i dunno, i feel like i am nothing more than a jester or joker sidenot in lifes comicbook, just a silly side note...and that i dont like... i am not going to the doctor for 2 reasons, 1.) i refuse to take "theyre drugs" anti-phychotics and whatnot in fear of becoming a zombie...ive seen what these do to people and they just become numb to life... 2.) i think if i really told someone like a shrink or a doctor how i feel they will have me committed..which is why i do it on here annomisouly... but if i think im crazy i dont think i am..because crazy people dont know theyre crazy..or do they i dunno??? anyone in a similar boat...just needed to vent

also i would like to mention, that i can still function with people fine, friends, family, job...i just feel cazy in my own head...i think i need to quit being a bitch and dose up again, but im not gonna...pot levels me out too so i dunno...just looking for answers i guess

how confident are you day to day?

hows your self image?

your not crazy, and as your trip told you we all get lost man. you have a girlfriend? you go to the gym at all? sorry for more questions than answers but hopefully its something

I dont think your crazy, but I have a skewed definition of sanity. If you feel that your psychedelic use is contributing to your feelings of insanity then take a break, they are not going anywhere you can always go back. I would definitely slow down with the rolls though.

Happy Trails

Not crazy one bit.. I had and have experienced very similar situations and personal feelings... There is no such thing as normal, the conditions and terms established in todays understanding of our psychological functions are only observations, I believe that conditions are created in the brain as a defense mechanism to function in a very real reality, when something is fundamentally askew or misunderstood about that reality.. What im trying to say is... the people who are truly psychotic for example.. Can turn a blind eye on direct or indirect problems prevalent in todays society.. "like oh... The war on Iraq is wrong but it doesnt effect me".. Conditions of the brain are a reaction, NOT a symptom of an illness

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wow..thanks, i feel much better now, like a weight has been lifted and i really arent too woried abiut it now...appreciate it...also im glad to find out i have a conciscence :P

It all depends on your self perception of reality!

It seems like you ventures on psychedelics on more occasions that you can count on your fingertips! It looks like you over used these psychotropic drugs and it may of caused some anxiety issues that may play havoc for a few months, but could be controllable at all cost! The central nervous system is a very sensitive thing for some, and all psychedelics whether they are typtamines or pheneythamines play a large role on your emotional and mental outlook. Never use or more properly abuse psychedelics, they have their special causes, when used in excess they can cause negative feedback!

crazy is what you make of it. You definitely can not fight it...roll with it....and along the way you choose whether to indulge and be creative or be a neurotic mess. :Mind over matter:

just let it ride and you'll be making clay elephants in your microwave in no time.....

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