About 3 months ago I smoked pot for the first time. I'm 19 and figured what the hell. I smoked with my sisters bf and that's the most regretable day of my life. Let me start from the beginning.

We went outside at about 1am. He lite it up Nd smoked it a bit then handed itoff to me. I inhaled it, it was smooth compared to he cigarettes I was uSed to. I inhaled a TON of smoke and held it. Exhaled. It tasted good. Took about 3 more HuGE hits. Then we went inside. We started wat hing George Lopez, it was dumb but I was laughing. About 3 minutes passed then I started feeling weird so I went to my room. By this time I was already fucked.

I felt my body stand up and walk, open my bedroom door then lay down. But my vision was stillin the living room. And shortly followed my body. I was lYing on my stomach with my hand on my hest. I felt my heart start beating really hard and fast. Then time slowed and everything got worse.

I went back to the living room, same probably with feeling things then seein them Bout 2 seconds lateer. I tried to say "Im really fucked up" but sad "immmmm reeeee fuuuuu uhhhhhhhh" and then things got even worse. I got stuck in vision loops, best way I can describe them is like 5 seconds periods of time that repeated over and over until I did something to stop them. Like jumping up, yelling, clinching my fist. Things like that.

My sister bf started freaking out, and went Nd got me some water, which I couldn't den holdand spilt all over my lap. I kept screaming to get out of these loops. Eventually my parents came in the room. My vision was still delayed. But I can remeber everythifng that was said.

Evetually I blacked out and had some crazy visions. First I saw my brain. And a thiusands pictures behind it. Then it flashed to a book, a huge book, and the pages turned extremely fast, then it slammed close

I'm not religious but at this time I thought, I've died... I'm in hell, and I'm just going to keep repeating my death over and over for eternaity. At this point I had the "broken" heart feeling. For my family to just watch me die. Then for myself to have to watch them watch me die for eternity. I zhouted, "Im dead and I'm in hell and it's horrible" my mom said "Your not dead, your right here!" She asked me if I wanted her to call 911, I told her it was too late, they'd never make it in time.

After about 30 minutes of being blacked
out but being able to hear and talk, my vision came back, everything had a blue tint and it was so amazing to be able to see again I started crying. Then I was hinking... His is my last moments... Whatever image I gt in my head now will all I'll have to remember for eternity. So I stared desribing everyhig. And cryng more.

The heart break feeling came back. And at this poin I went crazy and started chewng on the couch and throwing fit blindly. My step dad and sisters bf held me down for the rest f the might.

Before o feel asleep I was watching he tv. And in my dream it just kept repeating I didn't even realize I was asleep until I woke up.

Glad everything was over I got up. Only to have a new feeling. Delayed feeling. Almost likei was numb. It went away 3 days later.

I thought everything was gone. Until last month, I was just laying wiu my gf, and had the heart break feelin again. And thought I was realizing I really was dead. She calmed me down and we went to bed. The next koenig I was numb again for about 7 days this time. Ok so it must be gone, right?

No. It happened again 2 weeks later. The numbness didn't come with ome though. Then it happened again tonight, with slight numbness.

Will I eer get over this or do I have some kind o brain damage? I'm scared.

that is a very strange reaction to weed. are you sure it wasn't laced with pcp or something? i would think you should be fine but maybe you should stay away from drugs! and you are most definitely alive!

Dude it sounds like your sister's boyfriend laced that weed with PCP or something. I've never heard of anything like that strictly on weed. When I first started smoking I remember having a slight out of body experience and sometimes some slight paranoia including thought/time loops. But to black out and start hallucinating like that. That sounds like something way stronger. I hope you're ok.

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Yeah that def wasnt just weed. I wish weed could do that though =D MWahahaha

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Smoke bud.

I Love you^^^

No homo.

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Smoke bud.

So do you think it permanent?

It's been Bout 3 months so fAr.

Also sorry forthe horrible typing I'm on my phone

If your that freaked out about it i recommend seeing a doc. Sorry that your first experience with weed sucked but I agree with everyone else. Deff not just bud

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well my first time smoking i was convinced gravity was going opposite and sucking me into space i held my arms straight up four like 5 hours no joke. it was when one of the harry potter books came out. it was dusk when i smoked and i didnt put them down till midnigh when i got the book. it was so fucking crazy i was walking around in public (in marsh) just holding my arms up. i was sore for like weeks after.

point of story...

i took five hits off a blunt of shitter regs.

i dont know what would have happened after five hits of chronic. i bet it would been like your story.

all im saying is get the fuck over it. your frinds smoked the same shit and they were alright so obviously it was just weed. your definatly psyching yourself out.

GET OVER IT NOOB AND MAKE SOME MORE TOKES AND YOUR REALIZE IT WAS JUST THE BUD...


and i cant believe no one has asked if his frinds had the same reaction. its so obvious it was just bud

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4:19 lets smoke some

I can see that happening from just weed. If I smoke too much it feels a bit like a bad acid trip - it sucks, because I never used to have this problem. After having a few bad trips on acid and from staying up too long on speed, I can get that same feeling from weed. I don't hallucinate or anything, and what it really boils down to is an enhanced anxiety attack. That's probably what you're having too - bad anxiety, with extra detachment from reality brought on by the weed. The following ones that you've had are just anxiety attacks IMO.
The lesson I've learned: moderation. If you get the urge to smoke again, try a tiny hit and stop there. If you feel fine, then leave it at that. Nothing wrong with being a lightweight if you enjoy yourself.
I really don't think you've done anything permanent. Just do some deep breathing, and clear your mind if you feel anxiety coming on. You'll get past this.

Sounds like a salvia trip to me, crazy shit