a dog named chico

I still feel depressed, nothing will ever change that i fear...I submitted two new job applications today but am not optimistic about the outcome....there are too many people with more expirance. At home we trade unsure smiles, as to say thing are getting better...i can tell by her eyes she thinks it is bull shit...i cant blame her, at times i do too. She is working out he demons....time will heals the wounds darling, she wants answers that i cannot provide...I want peace for her, but cannot obtain it.

I have been living on a liquid diet for about a week...nothing healthy, i wounder at times if i am trying to kill myself slowly....the thought of death does not scare me! I have been dead for years...

Need to un-lock my mind from this never ending horror movie,,,