Sounds like depression dude.. doesn't weed help with that? I'm in the same boat as you right now but I've just got an interview for a job and that will maybe take my mind off things. Try to get something like that, maybe a hobby or something rewarding so you'll have something that you like while receiving stuff from it. Get what I mean? Oh and if you can you can find a psychologist to help you out since you do seem to be in quite serious shit. I've got both a psychatrist and a psychologist but psychiatrist just jack you up on pills.

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