Honostly, Suicide is never worth it. You need to find some hobbies. I have several hobbies, a girlfriend, gardening, and the greatest dog in the world to keep me happy ^_^
I think you need to go to the humane shelter and get yourself a puppy. Once you feel the unconditional love of a dog and you know that that dog would DIE without you will never wont to kill yourself lol. And if you ever have a bad day that dog will always be happy to play with you or make you laugh. I love taking my dog to parks and forests and anywhere else I can walk him and its great for getting your mind off of things or gives you plenty of time to think of things. Dogs are ALWAYS willing to listen to your problems =)
If dogs arent your thing then go with any animal that makes you happy but the moral of the story is that knowing you have the life of another being in your hands which you love is one of the greatets life savers ever.
Otherwise find a hobbie you can afford, or get to traveling.
I hope everything turns out well for you
AR