hi ganja...
you are on the path...
iloveyou
the key to meditation is to understand what meditation is...
meditation = watching the mind
meditation has nothing to do with sitting..
BUT.. sitting is a great method to begin...
watch the mind...
reacting to a thought or outside elements is NOT meditating
Meditating is becoming aware of awareness itself...
Sitting 2 times a day for 20 minutes is a fantastic place to start
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Watching the mind... quickly you will see this is the most difficult task ever given to you... it requires NOTHING except unrelenting pursiut...
You will see that it is nearly impossible to DO nothing...
the activity of doing nothing is the most powerful act man can DO...
the energy and power that flows through a man that has silenced his mind is unfathomable...
Stillness... sitting, non reaction, watching the mind.... watching YOUR breath is also one of the aspects of begining MIND WATCHING
as you watch your mind.. your thoughts will slow down. this may take a few weeks..
Eventually you will notice gaps of silence open up in between your thoughts....
THIS is STILNESS... the more you meditate the longer these gaps will become...
Eventually you will be able to shift your awareness from your mind to your body..
At this point you will have the revelation that few people get beyond... the revelation THAT you are NOT your mind... you are not your thoughts...
At this moment many people turn to religion in rder to get understanding of WHAT happened...
iloveyou
if you are very serious ABOUT this,
you should look at
Buddhist Meditation in the Theravada tradition
This is the way.. the way to awaken ONE SELF!
iloveyou