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Originally Posted by hydrotech364
I live on a dead end road way out in a natl forest.I have P.T.S.D and anxiety i think i inherited from my mom,shot two men on this property different times.i take 2mg of xanax a day,I know everyone hates them,the va will give me anything but them.so i have to see a crooked dr to get them.weed and xanax are my only vices.my dad says ill be handing out the fucking watchtower if i quit anything else,hes a state official [ret]anyway if there is anything out there that produces the same calming effect please let me know.anxiety is hard to describe and ptsd is something you people dont need to know about,war is hell!!!!
i dont fear any man or anything,its a different kind of feeling,worthlessness worry about everything.people plotting against you etc.....but if anyone knows something that would work plz post it.i have taken everything.else i know how they feel bro.i hope it all works out man,peace
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I know what anxiety is like...I barely leave my house because of it. I'm telling you what worked for me...herbs, and visualization. For a long time I controlled my mind by getting into a meditative state, envisioning my brain and the anxiety and depression as darkness engulfing it. I would use a white light as a purifier and push it out of my brain. You'd be surprised at the resistance you feel. I did this over and over until things were "clean" and then i washed it in blue light to heal. Yes, it probably sounds like a bunch of new age bullshit, but it kept my dad's leukemia in remission for 15 years. You can do anything with your mind...you just have to train it.
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Originally Posted by CanadianCoyote
There are certain strains of weed that have a powerful calming effect that also help depression. I believe the "Strawberry Cough" strain is one of the best for that sort of thing. Research strains, chances are you'll find one to fit your needs.
Xanax can be good for temporary relief of stress an anxiety, but taking it for long periods of time can create a horrible dependency on it. There's a reason doctor's don't like to prescribe it, it's highly addictive and has a lot of "potential abuse" qualities. If you can, I'd recommend getting off the Xanax as soon as possible.
I'd recommend finding a therapist to talk to. The VA would definitely help you there. While it's tempting to control your symptoms with pills, I think talking out your demons would help. That's just my two cents, just a suggestion. It's hard to talk about shit, especially horrendous and life-altering shit, but if you don't talk about it it eats your insides. If you DO go to a therapist, be open and up front about your marijuana use. You'd be surprised. Make sure you're going to a THERAPIST and not a PSYCHIATRIST. The psych'll dope you up so fast ...
Weed is a wonderful thing, and I hope it's helping you. It's certainly better for you (mentally and physically) than the Xanax. Just hang in there, that's all any of us can do. |
While I agree with your post, I'd like to interject that for some such as myself, therapy is not the way to go. I hate having my head picked, and I'm stubborn as all get out. I want to rely on myself....must be a childhood thing but I hate to be weak. And I believe that your mind is the master control to your body...a lot can be done with it, in terms of healing. However, I dont recommend telling therapists about
marijuana use. Theyre not your friend...theyre your therapist...and if for any reason your medical records are subpoenaed, well, there ya go.