Let's see now, I will start just 11 years back @ 20 I was in a crash involving a deer doesn't sound too bad yet. I hit this deer, and sent it flying into my windshield still not too bad, the thing came thru the front windshield and into the passenger seat.. of a FORD RANGER/ no king cab. That this piss pounded me I woke up 3 hours later.....in a huge V ditch not visible from the road. I ended up with 28 stitches a I had been knocked unconscious for hours..... they when I was 21-22 I guess I was involved in a fight ....yup you guessed it...not it was with a GUY 200 lbs worth I was one big mother back then 300-326lbs, ass didn't have a chance, that is what I thought HE did not have a problem pulling a knife on me and using it... that time I was so wasted no need for an ED trip...wrong I need 20-30 stitches.. too late to get them after 20 hours later... hummm someone forgot to tell me this...I now have an awesome scar on my inner thigh..... I love it when people leave their mark like a tatoo... I hate being branded with miserable memories.... anyways at 26 I was in a head on collision in an ambulance I was in the passenger side seat my partner/male/driving moved to the left lane to get around someone that was not yielding, and BAM right into a troopers car, we/I, I never saw it coming I hear OHHHH SHIT, BAM I broke my patella/(Knee cap) into 3 pieces, yeah can we say 8 weeks of hell in a knee stabilizer..... it is not like getting a knee replacement, in which he said we PROBALLY should have done the knee replacement from the beginning, but what the hell it wasn't his knee, I know what you mean I know when I is gonna snow & rain...lmao, Okay last one... here we were right in the middle of a huge hurricane that came at sat on us, well we had the national guard there I was a Paramedic my EMT partner and 2 soldiers went to try to rescue a elderly lady, I did not do this by choice, it was a job hazard... you go or you don't collect pay.. I have 2 kids, any ways I was with America's finest...lmao not we came to a bump in the road and the HUM-V didn't act like it wanted to go... I yelled stop!, the SRGT said WHAT.. I said how many hurricanes have you been in??? None this is my first now remind you hurricanes can be fun, but you have to be careful... anyways I said the road could be gone there was about 12- 12.5 inches of dark muddy fast moving rain water....I said humm I said let me call my Director and see..... the next thing I knew the truck was charging backwards.... the soldier looked me dead in the eyes, and said this thing will get thru anything... I said NOOOOO, by then I just hung on mind you I didn't have a belt on b/c I had just re-entered the vehicle.. we went slamming into this hard wall the nose of the HUM-V wen t nose first in a huge washed out part of the road, I was ejected, thrown right into a tree broke my L fore arm actually shattered it I had 2 operations on it... still not too good. BUT hey I am here and still able to talk about it.. I smoke POT and TRY to be happy, I use alot of herbal meds to help relax and sooth your body...Fdd you want some suggestions... Pm me back.... I will help you if I can I know what you are going threw... Can you believe that thru all that I took pain meds only for one procedure I had done... and I said I am an ex user I don't want anything...except tylenol... well I could not not stand it anymore my guts felt like a ring of fire I have had problems from day one... some the dr's could not foresee, BUT do you give a junkie the keys to a Methadone closet...NO well he gave me time released morphine pills... like giving milk to a baby I wanted/ and NEEDED more.. I got back all those same junkie withdrawls... cramping in the stomach puking... I got off of it all and went all herbal... it has been working for the most part I have really bad days......but I have 2 beautiful girls... they are worth more than any needle or high that a drug can produce... that has been my strongest motivation....Fdd, I know how you feel I keep stress headaches and they hurt, but you can't get them to give you something for your nerves, they think your anxiety goes away in the 30 days they gave you to get by on and then they act like it is too much to refill the script. kinda like your a druggie... I told my dr now if you are gonna give me something it has to be long term cause I have 2 kids and they are not leaving in 30days.....lmao.... Luv ya guys take care.....M
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