Vi you write beautifuly and make good sence, but I worry about your sanity sometimes. As a definition of insanity is doing something over and over the same way and expecting a different result. But hell I don't know what your expections are and you seem very sane.
How many years have you worked on med? The poor slob that he is, is just doing his job and works hard at it.

Me I just get high and play as I expect you do also or at least the playing part.

For my part it just seems like med asks to be played with.